When the news about Kris leaving EXO was released back in May 15, I was really mad and disappointed at him. I felt betrayed. The guy who proudly shouted EXO's motto, "We Are One!" left the group. He said that in every speech of his when EXO won an award. Don't you feel cheated? He made some kind of a promise to his fans and he left. Of course at first I did not know the reason why he made such decision.

However, when I found out the truth, I felt sorry for him. I was guilty for being angry at him. I felt like I should find him and give him a hug. Kris has a heart problem... My mom has a heart problem too. Although the hospital has discharged her, I'm still not confident that she's okay. I cried a lot at night thinking of my mom and Kris. I even suffered from sciophobia (fear of shadows) which I'm perfectly fine now. One of my readers was right, it was a coincidence. Without realizing, I viewed Kris as my mom.

During this period of time, I slowly monitored my Tlist. I wanted to know how EXO handled this situation. I have to tell you the truth, I'm totally disappointed. It started with how they emphasized that the other 11 members did not know anything and they had no problem with the company. (I can close one eye for this. Yes, I know they were angry. I know they were disappointed with Kris. It's normal.) Then, during Overdose promotion, some members keep on saying, "This is the beginning of EXO." (Something is really wrong. Don't you think so? What do they mean by this? For two years, Kris was just an extra member?) Then as days go by, OT12 becomes OT11. The remaining EXO members are comfortable with eleven members and it seems to them that Kris existence is not important in that group anymore. 

Recently there are updates from the EXO members. LuHan was online on Weibo during the mediation, Lay updated his Weibo, Tao updated his Instagram and none from the Korean members. However, Lay and Tao are just commenting on how they are going to improve. I don't want to know that. Anyone can improve if they are hard-working. What I am really waiting is for an EXO member to bravely tell his fans, "It's fine for Kris to leave the group but if he thinks that he wants to return to us, we will welcome him whole-heartedly."

When Hangeng left Super Junior, that was what LeeTeuk said. (Well, not exactly the same but the point is there.)

*Before you bash me or even hate me, I have to tell you that I don't know what's going on behind the scene. This is just my view and I want to share it with you. I'm not hating the group. I'm not leaving the group. I'll support them and their music. But I'm sorry to tell you this, I can't view the group like how I used to anymore. I'm sorry...