hi! havent posted a blog post for so long ha ha! well tbh i dont really open my acct here anymore nor read fanfics lol i just kinda got busy with school? and i dont feel like reading fanfics since uhh last year???? and until now uhh sorry i really cant find the will to read TT TT but it doesnt mean the fics here arent awesome! lol i am still subscribe to great fics and if i have enough time and when im in the mood i'll read them again yesss

a lot of things happened to me, since summer? i think.. it involves things that change something in me. both in a nega and positive way.. 

first, i'll make a confession. im not into exo as much as before. reason? i dont know.. with stuff going on and everything.. but it doesnt mean i dont love them anymore. im just saying the intensity of my feels for them arent that high as before haha like if they'll have another concert here (which would really happen btw) i wont be that crushed anymore... lol just kidding just by thinking about it saddens me alrdy TT TT fine i really still love them but something is definitely missing or rather someone /3 but yeah lol and i really really really miss shinee waaaaaaaaah idk what are they doing with their lives right now tuhu and if they released any jap album or are planning to release another korean album. tbh, i havent had any proper fangirling since november TT TT well thats life hoho TT TT

second, ive found another band (rather bandsss) that i like hihi weeeeee~ i refer to them as the 'sweet escape group' in my life lol but nevertheless i'll still hurt myself hahahahahahaha damn TT TT so these bands are quite popular which makes me wish every time i listen to them that i discovered them waaaaaay before TT TT i wont name them bleeeeh haha although if you are following me on twitter and if we're friends on facebook you would know haha 

third, I AM SO DRAMATIC. Seriously... i feel so disgusted of myself every time i realize im so over very really dramatic hahhahahahha i hate it!!! 

fourth, ive recently learned that depression makes you lazy, it drains you energy thats why you feel less (not) motivated to do anything.. okay i wont continue since i might say things you wouldnt really want to hear haha

there.. argh and i'll also start studying for my prelims tomorrow or maybe tonight? idk yet since i still dont have the pointers loolololololololol ok so maybe that's it? haha

p.s if anyone here likes any westerner band comment or msg me haha oh didnt i mention it in my second confession? yeah the bands i was talking about are westerners lol

p.p.s current state : tired

im so confusing and crazy, right? TT TT