CRAP.

Okay, I know it's late but the BaekYeon thing really destroyed, ripped and crushed my heart to pieces (and that's even an understatement). I was actually REALLY happy that day because my sister bought me an EXO dvd (about their showcase) BUT when my sister told me the news, I literally froze for a minute and after that, I ran to my room,closed the door and called a fellow exostan friend of mine and she was as devastated as I was.

Baek is like my bias wrecker and he eventually climbed up and became my ULTIMATE bias, running ahead of Suho and Luhan but when the news came I suddenly felt betrayed and hurt. I'm sorry for being so immature but I'm a fan and he told us fans that he would date when he would be at his thirties and for now he won't be dating anyone but what the hell happened now? It's not that I'm REALLY against it because love can't be controlled (I know the feeling) but he should have seriously thought of this before cuddling with Taeyeon in an open roof car. It was freaking immature of Baek to drive this issue when Exo has already been loosing fans because of Kris's issue. And I know he BROKE THOUSANDS of fans' hearts with this. He should have at least kept this a secret, because if fans won't know then I guess they won't be hurt.

But then again here comes SM. How could somene (as far as I know) like Taeyeon be so irresponsible to do lovey dovey things with Baek in an open roof car?!?! That was really stupid of her, unless, of course, they were told by SM to freakin do that on purpose just so they could attract the attention from Beast and Got7's comebacks, so they could increse their sales (which eventually happened the minute the news was released). And everyone is actually getting the feeling of this being a scripted and planned, remeber SAESANGS?! They could have found out in those four months (Ughh don't even get me started with that one)

I'm really sorry for saying foul words, but I really don't like the news. I'm sorry. I respect the two but i will NEVER EVER ship them. I'm happy for Baek because he finally got to date the noona he'd been idolizing but he is NOT my bias anymore, I liked Taeyeon the first time I heard of Snsd but I suddenly lost my "liking" for her and I hate the fact that she was so... ughhh.

No matter what i do, everytime I look at Baek I feel so disaapointed. Like don't get me wrong but when I watched the dvd of Exo's showcae, I just stared at Baek with a blunt expression and my heart wasn't beating unlike before (I usually scream when i see his face but... not anymore) because I was so disappointed and hurt. I don't know.... Baek... I really coldn't imagine them being a couple... Ughhh.. Damn it.

Okay then this news got me pshyched. Exo-k, possibly Sehun, Kai or SUHO dating an APink member?!?! I was happy and scared at the same time. Of course because as you all may know I ship EXOPINK bu then again the girls would be bashed and since SuRong is my MOST FAVORITE otp, I was also nervous. Ya know why? Because there was a bigger possibility of the girl being Eunji and not Chorong (and I'm sorry but I really don't like SuJi)

And yet I don't want to hear the news just yet because Apink is having their VERY FIRST showcase in Japan and I know a lot of fans want to go but if the dating news (if ever) comes out, Apink will gain haters and I don't want a black ocean happening for my girls.

I... I just don't know anymore. Darn.