So yeah, I went on another drinking spree a couple of weekends ago, spending one Saturday night in a pub with a bunch of friends.

I was borderline wasted when one of my lady friends suddenly sat beside me. She knew what was going on with myself (all busted up with a broken heart). Next thing I knew, we were chatting in a corner a bit away from the main event of the evening (dancing and drinking). I really couldn't remember parts of what we were talking about, but she was basically trying to cheer me up, saying that it was such a waste that I'm such a good looking guy with a good heart and I shouldn't be too sad about the whole thing. And then I remember holding and squeezing her hand, saying thank you for trying to cheer me up, before I almost passed out.

The following day, my two roomies who carried me back to our dorm room were all over me, asking if I was hooked up with her. When I pressed them for details, they said that they saw me I was holding her hand, hugging her waist, and kissing her forehead almost the entire time that we were sitting there, while she had her head on my shoulder. Of course, I couldn't remember the whole thing so I really couldn't confirm or deny all that they were saying.

Anyhoo, from that time until now she and I kept on talking, either in person or through chat. Sometimes I would end my day chatting with her for a bit before going to bed, either through SNS or through text messaging. And we went to a party last weekend and again, we ended up sitting together in a corner just talking, with drinks of course.

I then realized that it's her birthday this coming weekend. I'm thinking of getting her something that she can wear in the inevitable birthday dinner party. Maybe a necklace with matching earrings, I dunno. And the last time I did such a thing was during my ex's last birthday before we broke up.

But these past few days, I couldn't stop thinking about her. To cut a long story short, I feel like a high school kid with a teenage crush all over again. And I was getting jealous and uneasy when she doesn't return my messages or I see her hanging out with her male friends.

I'm thinking of 'fessing up to her. I like her at the very least, that much I know for sure at this point. But yeah, it's a bit messed up. We've been friends for a while, but not too close until that first night in the pub when she tried to cheer me up. Well right now as well she doesn't have a boyfriend, and we've been growing closer and closer since.

Oh well.