Alright, this may be a very long post, so I hope anyone who reads it would bear with me.

First of all, my apologies if I haven't been satisfying my readers with a lot more frequent content as I once had. There are several reasons why content dropped off so much in my fics and in my blog, and I feel that owe you guys an explanation as to why.

In essence, real life just took over a lot of my time. And unfortunately, it's not only the good things about it. A lot of it are more on the negative side of things.

Starting with my battle with initial signs of depression. Yes, bellieve it or not, despite the good things that are happening in real life, I am suffering from the early stages of depression. Not even the girl knows what to do because she's afraid of making any mistakes. But of course she's been very supportive and has been trying to at least get me out of my constant ruts and whatnot. It's just that real life obligations with our own work and family has been keeping us from going away for a while, like taking a vacation together. It is unfortunate that we also have our respective issues with family and work, and since we're both in a position of some responsibility, it's hard to just drop everything.

The next thing was the activity that I have observed here in AFF. I noticed that while I'm still getting a lot of subs, I'm only getting a few comments here and there, even for my previous chapters. I know that my fics have been going on for a while, but even earning comments for my previous chapters has been nonexistent, if any at all. And I don't know if that's a good thing or a bad thing, but not getting comments on chapters means that I don't get the feedback that I can use to help me go on and keep on writing and keep on improving because there's no feedback. And given that I don't earn money from any of this at all, right now there's not a lot of motivation for me to write because I don't know how the audience receives it. Granted that Girls' Generation-themed fanfics are becoming far and few in between, but it would be still very much helpful if at least I can get feedback in terms of upvotes and comments that what I'm still writing is of relevance and still appealing. Also, I've seen a lot of the stories that I have subbed to gone dead as well, and that adds to my demotivation and disappointment as well at the moment. Seeing other authors writing in the same genre for the same group going gone makes it all the more difficult for me right now.

Thirdly, are the events in the KPop fandom over the last year and a half. I so hated it so much with what happened to Tiffany (which until now some people are refusing to let go of an old bone during Seoul Fashion Week). Feeling so helpless and frustrated because I, along with a lot of international fans, can't do much about what happened to her ate me up so much. It was just so goddamed unfair to her to be treated like that. Also, that thing going on with ONCEs and SONEs is just so frustrating as well. I myself was trolled several times over by people claiming to be ONCEs bashing at me and Girls' Generation. I just couldn't believe the level of shallowness and pettiness these kids have in pitting TWICE against Girls' Generation just to fulfill their own delusions. I don't understand why these people are always picking fights with SONEs like me when I'm just leaving them alone and not even caring what's happening to them.

So these three things going on were what forced me to stop for a while and rethink things over. Now I'm not saying that I'm back here full time. I'm not even sure as to how much time I can get back to doing this, despite the fact that I have been slowly writing and lining up more chapters for both my fics right now.

So yeah, I don't know. I will try to keep going here. With that being said, I do apologize once again if I've become inactive for a while here.

Thank you.

DarkUlrich