“Homo homini lupus est."
Man is a wolf to man. / Man is his own wolf.
- Plautus -

i'm ready to write EXO again...slowly.
but i would like to apologize first, to what i might do to my story-lines in the future.

the reality of their current transition will take weeks, months maybe even years for the dust to settle and allow the beauty of Lay's healing to build upon it's soil of post-destruction.

this is the reality of the adult world.
this is reality in it's banality.

so between that long period, the journey in between; these twelve, even when one has gone would eventually grow, mature and remain wiser than they are now. and that will be the growth of my characters in their reference, as much as they, my muses grow. every possibility is possible. and i will keep my story-lines open to all those possibilities. in time you'd probably notice a certain difference in my portrayals of all twelve of them. yes, i said all twelve of them, even when one has gone to become Wu Yi Fan and would humbly not include himself in the journey, it would be very much unfair for me to disregard him for the growth in his complexities, too. it is him. and that means he is still my muse, too. and like Big Bang, and so many more in my thoughts; he still remain as one of my muses. EXO too, as they were, are now and will be in the future...will remain my muses, too.  and it's structure, the stories still undone. incomplete. i will write it as it is. yes, in subtle variations and countless metaphors. maybe, even bluntly and directly related to reality. so, yes. it might hurt you, even pain you or give you reruns of bittersweet memories.

my axis may rarely sway. but, ever since that life-changing moment i had on the cliff years ago, nothing will easily waver me.

so, nothing should waver EXO.
nothing should waver Wu Yi Fan.
and nothing should waver you who care most about all of them.

for under that veil of darkness we're now in, in my own need for therapy..i can only provide in process, slowly; what a writer would be obliged to reveal for a muse:

transcendence.

cuz, that's what we encountered.
just a step towards...
and that will be what we will live through.

and i'm not gonna act like it never happened. because it already did.