*I posted this on my A/N on my current story Love is Sin and if you already read it, don't read it again. This is just my little thoughts and feels about it.*

So, hi. 

I'm pretty sure most of you heard about the Kris incident with the lawsuit and all this other bad stuff...it's really making me depressed and unmotivated to write. I know, bad and lame excuse. I'll try to continue writing, but so much is going on and I don't know what to do. I wish I could do something for him and exo, but in reality, I can't. But, whatever is his decision, I'll support him no doubt. 

Tbh, I wrote a little one-shot about it. Yes, crappy authornim did that. But, I won't publish it. It's just for me. Writing is my own kind of therapy. Whenever I'm down, I write my feelings. And, yesterday, I decided to write a story. I just needed some comfort. It's kind of like an AU but me being able to be there for him, person to person, and just hug him...I did feel a lot better, but I cried ahaha. In just a day or two, I felt like the world just blew up into chaos. I was lucky I didn't go to school yesterday. Boy, I would've been a wreck if I did attend. 

But, I figured, crying won't solve anything, really. It won't make him happy to see us cry. It's still hard to bear with it though. I just want to be strong. I want to be able to do something. But, I can't. All I can do is write stories and look at him through my laptop screen. 

Fans everywhere are falling apart and saying Kris should stay with exo. I feel the same, but at the same time, if staying with exo makes him suffer (not because of exo, but because of sm ent.) then I'd rather he or exo, not be under that company. It got me wondering if Kris was treated so badly, what about the rest of them? 

All these rumors and what not make me question and worry a load more. It just keeps getting worse and worse. Like where is all this coming from? From Exo unfollowing kris, baekhyun still following him, but getting slapped in the end? Then baek unfollows him. Tao says he betrayed them and firmly believes kris will leave...pics of exo-k with sad and depressed faces? Suho calling kris irresponsible, which I highly doubt he did. All this crap...coming out at once? Then Kris has heart problems and the reasons why he filed the lawsuit all come out...I just don't know anymore. 

All I do know is that I believe in kris no matter what. And I'm waiting for him to come home and smile and be happy again. I want him to be healthier and more cherished. He's an adult, but he's still young. There's still more to do for him in this world. 

And all these fans talking about KILLING the current CEO of SM...BIG.FAT.NO. Don't you dare drop to that level of being a 'murderer'. No matter what he did or does, doesn't give you the right to threaten a man and take his life. This is serious and whoever agreed with that, I'm utterly disappointed. Life should be cherished, not takened by 'pure' young hands of angered fan girls. Even as a joke, it's not funny. Don't make this more crazy than it already is. We don't want to be labeled as freaking psychos (even tho we already labeled that). Don't get crazy with your emotions. DON'T. 

 So anyways, I'll try  not to freak out with every thing I see. I'll just wait patiently. 

Recently, all I've been saying is: He's our galaxy, and we're his stars. We need to light up his dark sky. We need to shine brightly for him. Let's light up the galaxy. 

take care my fellow galaxies (?) i guess since we're all still "kris biased"

love you guys and take care <3 try not to worry to much :) take care of yourselves too! gotta be strong for kris and our boys :))

-PANDA