This is what I'm feeling

I would rather seal my lips than talking about mournful memories. I don't know, I'm just feeling a bit down in a sudden. You know, I don't actually love to talk about my school's life. Because I have nothing to remember about. It's something that would never get into my nerves and when people started to talk about how beautiful their day was back then in school, I feel like "Why didn't I have the good memories as you?" "Why couldn't I feel the excitement to talk about school days?" 

Maybe it's because there's no good memory in there? No great story to be shared? or no good experience to be told? The answer is NO. and That's all. I could only smile, or laugh or maybe just saying yes, or no. I wanted to feel the same like what they're feeling when they were telling the story about their school days. I wanted to share the same excitement as theirs but I couldn't and wouldn't. Because I know the story would only bring tears and I'd sunk deep into the darkness. 

*The school days I mean the primary - secondary. Exclude the higher education* /sigh/ 

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krlutase95 #1
Don't feel sad, because I will feel sad, too :(
I know how you feel. Many old class members have so many memories they can share with others, but not me. I only was on the side and saw these things, but never was a part of it. I also didn't had real friends in my class. In the beginning I had many people who talked to me or spend time with me. But trhough the years they found other people and turned their back to me.
From the eigth class on I only had one friend, but she changed in the 9th and always let her anger out on me. We had so many class trips together, but I was always alone.
It's the same in college now. I was always alone. I couldn't always be a part of the meetings or the trips they made. The twelfth year was the horriblest one. I only cried and felt depressed and thought about quitting. But that would have ruined everything I dreamed of.
And now, I still don't have many friends, only the ones who have so much in comon with me. But some of them are also slowly drifting apart from me.
But then I came here and there are so many people who have the same thoughts than me and share the likes and tastes with me :)
And maybe I will also find here someone who can share with me more beautiful memories^^

So please don't be sad. I think here are many people who went through the same things as you and want to cheer you up, because you are a kind and beautiful person ^^ ♥
boicexoddy #2
It's okay unnie, we'll make more good memories together for you to remember it. I'll make sure you'll feel the excitement whenever you tell your future children about your past life, with me, with the rest of OT5 ^^ /sehunhugs/
My school life was great, but being with you; creating memories together is beyond great! ^^
I love you to the moon to the pluto to the galaxy to the universe and never ever come back! 143 muchoosss <3

Love,
Iman
zogeumie #3
Don't keep them feelings bottled up unnie :( If you need to let it out, let it out.
If you need someone to listen, I'll be more than willing to.
You can always talk to me unnie. Don't be sad anymore <3
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