I'm back home, thanks for worrying :)

I think and I know I shouldn't be feeling like this but I feel guilty. I feel guilty because I was just so immersed in my own problems that I couldn't even notice my friend's problems. I'm sorry for that. But not for that only.

You know it's not the first time I lose a close friend because of cancer. So yes, maybe the pain is lessened this time; but it still hurts.

Last time we talked, was when you got the BIGBANG concert DVD that your cousin gave you. I told you how much I wished to have my own as well but I couldn't afford it because only japanese versions are available in Europe and they're friggin expensive. You actually agred with it.

But now, let's go back in time. 

I met you in the 11th May, 2012. That was two days after you created your first story, 'Love Ain't Easy'. The plot just drawn me in like a magnet. You began reading my story, 'Revenge' as well and you commented in my story, and I commented in yours. It was quite fun, and we talked through comments and wall posts and PMs. I just checked it. I commented 23 times in that fanfic. In the 23rd May, 2012, I made you a poster for your story.

Your virtual hug nearly suffocated me, but that's alright. No need to apologize.

I remember I always tried to leave you long comments but as time went by they got shorter and shorter. I remember that the comment I left you in the last chapter was this huge block of text.

I mean this monologue:

Oh MY God... I was crying when I saw my name on the Special Thanks section... Omona you made me cry ! It's not easy to make me cry ! And you did it ! You should be proud for making me cry, I mean it in the good way ! I really had some acumulated tears that I still had to spill out and that I hadn't got the chance to.

I'm extremely sorry for lacking on this fanfic lately. I'm subscribed to so many fantastic stories out there that believe me, I try my best to comment on them all but I just can't. Wish I was Wonderwoman or Superman.

I just loved everything from this. I remember the insecure and shy author you were at the beggining when I began commenting on this fanfic. I loved the romantic, cute, hot, sad, depressing, cliffhanggy moments that you put on here. It was like a good mixture of humour, romanticism and, for a time, I SEE A FANFIC IN WHICH NOT EVERYTHIN'S PERFECT !

Just like I said on my first comment here, I know how sad you feel when you finish such a large fanfic that took a part of your precious time for so many weeks and months.

You feel relieved, yet nostalgic. I felt like that when I finished Revenge :')

I don't think this needs a sequel. It's perfect the way it is.

Perfect piece of art.

Should I speak myself like on Bigbang's song ? She can't get enough she0s addicted to my love ~

Haha....

Lots of love <3

Your dear/loyal reader and portuguese friend Mariana ^^ 

Yeah, those were great times.

Anyway, I remember you began another fanfic called 'Black Roses'. You actually came to my shop and requested for a poster and I was like 'yaaaay' so I gladly made you a poster. (DO READ THIS STORY OKAY PLEASE FINE THANKS)

This fanfic just ugghhh drained the life out of me @___@

Even though I found out the ending of the fanfic at the beggining and we kinda talked about it... Heish I almost left you the biggest spoiler in Human society's history in your comment section but still, it was enjoyable to see how the story developed. 14 comments in that story gaaaahhhh I should have commented more T^T.

Tell me, how did you dare to make me cry ?

You nappeun sarami //toktoktok

And theeeen, just theeennnn you started a new story *winks *winks

And another poster of mine, for One-Way Love !

I'm glad you liked the poster. You could have thrown it away but you didn't. Thanks.

This story is unfinished and sadly, it will never be finished. I guess, every single one of your readers will imagine their own ending. Who will end up with Bom ? Si Won ? Seung Hyun ? Ji Yong ? Who knows. Every single reader has its own opinion. And it will stay like this.

As a way of 'redeeming' myself and apologize for being such a bad friend lately, I just want to tell you my next objective:

GET YOUR FIC 'ONE-WAY LOVE' FEATURED.

Maybe you didn't even wish for it. But I want to tell you this. Yesterday your fanfic had 26 upvotes, and now it already has 71. For now, I've only put up my request in my two most-subscribed stories, 'Tamed Heartbreakers' - which you loved ^^ - and 'Fateful Look'. I'm asking my readers for help, and I take this blog post to ask for this favour to my friends here as well. Please, it might mean nothing to you, but it means the world for me and the people who loved her. If you could upvote, make a blog post about it or just write it in one of your stories, it would mean so much. My dream is to see your fanfic up there Annie, with the golden star, in Asianfanfic's mainpage. I want to show you how much you're worth it and that we can make it happen.

I'm not doing this for popularity or to show people 'how good I am and blah blah blah'. I want to do this to show you how much I love you and we love you and how much your story deserved to be featured. Even if it will never be finished, I want it to be there, in the featured corner. I want to make this to remember you, and remember people how good, shy, awkward, stupid, silly, ignorant, friendly, pretty, nice and spectacular you were.

And maybe yes, this is the silliest blog post I've ever written here but it surely is the most heartfelt one I've ever wrote. I will continue re-reading your stories, and posting comments, even if you don't like it. I'll spam your Insta account to death, and I'll un-subscribe to you and subscribe again until eternity and beyond.

If anyone here has problems surpassing this emptiness you left us, please read this.

And with this posted, and with this said, I close this chapter of my life.

Like you once said,

Like Seung Hyun once said in your fanfic, 'Home is wherever I'm with you.'

Love you, respect you, admire you and remember you.

Because leukemia might have taken you away from this life, but not from my heart.

Forever :)