I am terrified.

Recently, I have been having countless panic attacks about the future.  I know I'm barely even a teenager yet, but my future is all I can think of.  And I'm lost.  I have no drive or passion to do anything for a career.

I used to what to be a singer---seriously?  No hope for this, gave up on it as soon as I developed some common sense.

I wanted to be an actress---let's face it, I at acting.

Sure, I have good grades in school.  Normally, people would look at my report card and think, "This girl is going some where".  But what can I do with an A in math?

I don't want to spend my adult life wilting away in some cubicle.  I have no skills or interests.  I have no idea what I'm going to do for a living.  I don't think I will end up jobless and living on the streets.  But I most likely will wind up wilting away in some office some where.  

Is it too much to ask for a job that doesn't make me hate my life?

I have all these hopes and goals.  But with out a job, how the hell am I going to do them?  Go skydiving, visit Korea.

How the hell am I going to ever get to Korea?

I am petrified to leave my friends and family, my home.  My friends are all I have, and, honestly, I am not the best at making friends.  I'm not sure if I couldn't ever muster up the courage to leave this town.

But I want to live in the city.

I want to travel the world.

Experience New cultures.

I'd go insane if I stayed here.

My older sister brought to my attention that everyone in my family struggles through life.  At first, I refused to believe her, but upon farther consideration, I realised it was true.

ARGHSDFIJKLOHMIGODBAKXBN!!!!!!

What am I to do...

(;_;)

If anyone else out there feels this way, message me please.  Or even if you're bored and just want to talk.