The worse thing for a writer to face besides a writer's block would be a complete lack of motivation to write. Let me explain, a writer's block is a lack of inspiration. It can be solved by finding said inspiration again. Change your lifestyle, go on new adventures, laugh, cry, smile, tear... All the actions above will find you new topics to write about. Meet new people! They serve as inspiration. It's never too tough to find inspiration. It's, however, in my own entitled opinion, more difficult to find motivation.

I wouldn't lie to you (whoever that reads this blog). I've lost the motivation ages ago. It pains me when the only thing I've ever loved doing turns into something I feel I MUST do. It should be done because I love it, not because I am obligated to. I feel guilty sometimes but that doesn't change the fact that I've completely lost all motivation to write. At first, I thought it was the pairing YunJae but now, I know. It's everything. I can't even write my anime pairings anymore. This utterly .

I love how I've been telling myself that it isn't true when deep down, I know it's true. I've lost my heart for this. I can't write something I can't bring myself to do. Stories need to come from the heart or they're better off being nothing. Actually, they're something. They're trash. I've never been too hard on my writing ever since I've joined AFF. You guys have taught me how to calm down and let my writing just be published. I'm always again so thankful for all the love showered upon my works. Be it my longest running chaptered fic The Phone Call or my other singular one shot fics, I thank you. Joining AFF was seriously the best decision of my life. I've found friends in here I never thought I'll find elsewhere. For that, thank you. :) Even if you're just a quiet reader of my work, believe me, you've made a difference in my life.

It's with much regret I'm parting with this. I could, for readers' sake, type out an epilogue for The Phone Call but it won't come from the heart and I don't want to do that. I believe each story should be written with the heart and should be vet with the mind. Stories are about characters with feelings. You can't use the mind to write feelings. Feelings can't be logical after all. Right now, I can't do it. In fact, I've not been doing it for a long while now. All my stories have been falling in standards and words. It doesn't invoke any emotions in me. I'm ashamed of some of my work and that should never be the case.

I'll leave this account here in case any others are interested in reading some of the stories here. Any other uncompleted fics will be deleted with the exception of Kajima Yunho Yah. The Phone Call will be left here as well since I can't leave readers hanging after these many chapters. I'll write something out and hopefully, it'll be good enough. 

I'm sorry for everything. This is truly goodbye I guess. I never thought I'll say goodbye to writing and this kind of makes me wanna cry because I want this badly but somehow nothing is working out the way it's supposed to be. I never thought I'll receive these much attention though. I'm so so so thankful for that. My friends are so irritated with me telling them whenever I gained a new subscriber but I can't express my joy otherwise. You've no idea how happy you've made me. I'm so thankful for the opportunity you have given me. :)

Thank you.

Deepest apologies,

amejunk

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