Leaving or staying?

I don't know what to say because firstly, I am very happy that I can have a REAL BREAK from school. I am really stressed and depressed during the past months and every single day is a torture for me. There are times that I was on the edge of giving up. Runaway from everything but I know that I can't run away from reality. Now, officially that I am having a break, I want to continue my story which has been hiatus at first and I put it on discontinue mode. I want to fix that one-shot but I just can't. As much as I want to continue writing, I just can't find myself writing. As much as I want to post those new stories that I have been thinking of for months, I just can't.

I am not really a good writer. If there's a ranking of writers and Level 10 is the highest, I can say that I barely reach level 3 of being a writer. I used to find writing as an escape to my reality, AFF has been one of my favorite sites and it will always be. But right now, I feel like I am a stranger once again at this site. I lost that feeling that whenever I check this site every single day, I would be excited for the orange font color on the left side of my monitor.

Right now, I am deliberating on leaving this site or not. I've got reasons why I want to leave AFF, firstly, it's because I only got 2 months of vacation, and after that short vacation, I am very sure that I would be a mushroom again, I'm pretty sure that I'd find myself back once again here--back at home but then again, I don't like to leave this site because I want to write stories, I want to continue writing. 

I don't know what to do.

Should I leave or not?

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SeoMate01 #1
dont leave
blueaoichan #2
I don't think you should leave. You love this site and you did say "I don't like to leave this site because I want to write stories, I want to continue writing." If you don't want to leave than stay. :)
I know you've got reason to leave too but if the reason is only because you might be busy and can hardly be in the site, I don't think you really should leave. Rarely active on the site is better than leaving :(
dawnxiamara #3
Why leave AFF when your heart is here? First and foremost, i think you need time to think and lay low for a while. Time to think and everything in between. We all have stories to tell but, only few have the expertise to eloquently write facts and fiction plus with added ingredients which authors only know what that is making the outcome flow smoothly like a clear water in the vast clear river of the north pole. And you are one of the chosen few to express what we readers call a " damn good author". So relax, sit back and let nature takes its course for you to say, hey, my mind is full of things to write.... By then, you will be writing again without hardship..... We will be here waiting on what you will write for us... Take time....FIGHTING!!!
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