Having my hospital internship (FINALLY. After one and half month of waiting) for two weeks, I really enjoy the experience. Well, I don't know if you guys enjoy staying at the hospital working or not but I really enjoy my stay in the hospital. Well, I am having my internship in the pharmacy (obviously my course is Pharmacy) and I really can't explain how I feel in general but right now I feel sad because my internship is about to end next week. 

Due to delay of waiting for my internship, I have a duty of not less than 12 hours which means longer hours on duty but shorter days. As much as I want to stay in the hospital for another week, I can't. School's about to resume in my country. 

Right now, I am still in my tiny bubble, enjoying the last bits of the hospital experience. Since I was young, my mom told me I should take nursing but when I grow up and I end up having no goals for my future. Well, my pre-med course right now just gave me the impression of curiousity that's why I take it. I don't have hesitations about it except "What will happen to me in the future?", "Can I pass the board exam?" and so forth questions of doubt. 

When I was young, whenever I go to my doctor, 'Doctor of Internal Medicine' give me the same curiousity as pharmacy. I told my parents a couple of months ago that I am interested in becoming a doctor but I am doubting on the expense and the span of studying and I feel like I am asking too much for my parents about it.

Well for two weeks, I am lost. There's something inside me that told me I should continue my medicine. I really enjoy working in the hospital, I was never afraid on blood, or whatever except for the surgery. Still there are doubts, I am confuse and I am afraid of many things....