I got this little conversation to my friend in facebook about love.  We talked about random things until we get to the part about my crushes [yes with ES] I know they're many. I told her about my three crushes. That it is very fun and very inspirational to have more crushes because if the other one is absent you still have a back up to make your day brighter. Then she told me, "When will I have my own crush again?". I told her, "If it's just crush you want for now, just look anywhere, left and right, so many fishes in the ocean." I joked. Then she suddenly told me that, "I'm not like you. I'm not like that". 

I got hurt, of course. Who wouldn't be? She just told me 'indirectly' that I'am such a 'flirty girl' having so many crush inside our campus. But then of course, I need to control my temper. Then I replied to her this; [it's like a novel, please bare with it, we only talked about that in our chat in fb so it's kinda long if you will take a look at it in our chatbox].

[ME]: "Is it wrong to have a crush on someone? Tell me, what is wrong with it? You call someone because she have so many crush? Is idolizing a celebrity, a ? Crush is just like that, idolizing someone. 

[HER]: "I just can't explain my feelings towards my past crushes."

[ME]: "That's the point. You can't even tell weather if it's still a crush or not. How can you call it a crush when you really have no idea about it. Don't you know that it's much better to have a million crush than to love two individual at the same time? Because love should just be to only one (I'm referring to our special someone, family and friends are not included). You should love only one. Even if they're two, the love for the other one is much stronger than the other. When you love, He's the only one you can see. When you love he's the only one you have a crush with. You love his actions. You're starting to love the things he like. You can't even take your eyes off of him. That even though he made you cry, there will be a time that you will forgive him.

I know that I talked a lot. Haha. But I was beyond irritated when she just reply, "Wow, so long". I was like, "what the heck?" Then I just bid her goodnight and post it right away in AFF to share it. 

But not long after. I ask my self. "What is love? Why do people love? How do people love? When do people love? Why someone became happy because of love? Why someone became sad because of love? Why someone became crazy because of love? Why do people cry coz of love?  Is love a phenomenon?"

So many questions, when will I have my answers?