The power of music can be extremely scary sometimes. Songs can cheer you up and make you cry. Sometimes the world around you just disappears when you listen to a good song.

I usually don't listen to the same albums for a long time.There are some artists I tend to listen to a lot when I write because I know that their music doesn't really distract me (unlike those artists I love and whose songs I usually sing along to) but most of the music I listen to is fairly new.

So today I randomly started listening to an album I really loved last summer. I still love it, of course, but one of the songs brought back some of my old feelings and that's really uncomfortable. I had a bit of a one-sided crush going on that resulted in me constantly getting drunk in the middle of the week and in my friend hooking up with the guy I liked. And that just .

It was a great time in a way. Last summer probably was the summer of my life but that one particular feeling of rejection is something I don't need.