I have this hating thing about men

I mean I can't even talk with them properly or hug them, I feel really uncomfortable around them like they are a weird, unhuman specimen.

I don't like when they touch me, usually I give a hand-shake and a smile and for that they think I'm shy and cute. I dislike the way they talk, they move, their thoughts well some of them are nice guys, they are very respectful and gentle but I think I have only meet the jerks one.

I think I developed this thing about them since I was a kid because even in kindergarden I loved play with girls and when I was in middle school and even in high school it was a torture when I had to work with them and when my bestfriend got a boyfriend I felt jealous I hated that guy with all my guts, I think I had a crush with my friend and right now I remember I wonder how would feel kiss my friendafter that I began dating a guy, he was nice totally gentleman but then I found about the other girl...

In my trip to find myself I kissed a lot men but none of them made me feel how I feel when I'm with a woman, the soft skin, the tenderness,the curves oh my god it is something that drives me crazy and everytime when I'm with my girlfriend itis a whole new thing, I must say that I am f#$% afraid of , I totally understand the straight girls they like that thing I like yours that was other reason  for why I found myself gay! I don't believe in stereotype because I had always been girlish I love dresses, high heels, purses, diamonds, skirts, make up, nowadays people think that I'm straight but not all the lesbians are boyish I'm a example and I love turn down a boy when he is flirting.

After all this reasons, now I understand why I like Taeyeon she has all the things that I like in a woman I really hope she doesn't like guys I will be heart-broken if she dates men, butwell it's her life and from my site I will always like that cuttie Kid leader! Taeyeon sarangheyo!!!!!

I am not trying to make anybody uncomfortable or picking fights, I am just expressing my feelings...for a sleepless night