Arrrgggg I want to kill my brain sometimes TT____TT

Hey Guys or whoever who will read this crap :D

I love reading fanfic, but I also write some. ...  not really, I have many ideas (more that 20fics on my computer and more on my brain) I wrote only the summary.  I'm so tired, I have so many things to do so I cannot write them. . . . Also English is not my native tongue so I need a beta.  I'm so sad not to be able to write them, I found them original -dead- Eottokke?