Longing for a Pulse

word prompt - sehnsucht (German) - The inconsolable longing in the human heart for we know not what. 

 

A word from a reviewer about the title: 

Every heart needs a pulse to beat and every person needs a reason to live.

"I think it’s a very appropriate sentence to support the title. To break down the true meaning of Longing for a Pulse, you decided to place that sentence and affect your readers even more – in a good way, too. Moreover, you really did connect the title with the overall plotline. Longing for a Pulse fits the genre very well and I have to commend you for not limiting its meaning to one subject only. In my personal interpretation, the subject of the title could either be Kai or Haneul – since the two of them actually longed for something in common: happiness, to simply put it – and you gave the space for us, readers, to decide which among them is the one who longs for the “pulse”. 

- macchiato, WORLD OF LITERATURE. 

 

 

 

 

 

I love you. I’m sorry

But I can’t do this anymore

I don’t even have the right to get close to you

Don’t love me

I don’t have the ease of being able to give you my heart

I live every day beyond my strength

Each day is too much so I cry

 

 

Oh, I.. I don’t have anything I can give you

(but I’m) missing you

I can’t even give you loving words

But I’m missing you

I can’t even boldly wish for you to be mine

But I’m missing you

So I push you away

Because I’m a guy who has nothing but his own heart

I’m holding back, even though it hurts

Even tears are a luxury for me

I don’t even have the right to look at you

Don’t look at me

 

 

I know that my heart is wherever you are

Close enough our breaths can touch

Always in that same place

 

Oh, I… I don’t have anything I can give you

(but I’m) missing you

I can’t even give you loving words

But I’m missing you

I can’t even boldly wish for you to be mine

But I’m missing you

So I push you away

More than anyone else in this world

I love you, so I hold back

 

 

Oh I… I can’t hold your hand

But I’m missing you

I’m worried I might just have my tears to hold

So I’m missing you

I can’t tell you to stay with me

But I’m missing you

So it’s too much, but in the end

It’s because I’m a man who has nothing but his own heart

 

-Only Tears, INFINITE

 

 

 

Always the exactly same sky and always the same day

 

Other than your not being here, there’s nothing different at all

I just want to smile, want to forget everything

Just like absolutely nothing has happened, smiling to live my days

Because I miss you, because I miss you

Everyday I keep calling you alone

Because I miss you, because I miss you

Now I keep calling your name like a habit

Again today

I thought I sent you away without any regrets

No, no, I couldn't send you away yet

Because I miss you, because I miss you

Everyday I keep calling you alone
 

Because I miss you, because I miss you

Now I keep calling your name like a habit

Again today

 

It seems like I'm going to die, what should I do?

I love you, I love you, I love you

Without even saying those words, I sent you away like this

I'm sorry, I'm sorry, do you hear me

Can you hear my late confession?

I love you

 

-Because I Miss You, Jung Yong Hwa