Hey, guys. There's probably not a lot of people that won't read this, but for the ones who do, thanks. 

Well, from the title, you can already tell what I'll be talking about.

friends. Or, two friends, to be more specific. 

Okay....here's the first girl.. She's really smart, and she's one of the two people out of our grade that's gotten the highest GPA . If anyone was wondering, 8th grade. She's determined to become valvic Victorian(however your spell it), and there is no doubt that she's competitive. She's nice to a lot of peope, and she's pretty, smart, and she gets along easily with just about..everyone . Everyone is nice to her, they all adore her. 

Unfortunatly, she isn't so nice to me. At times, there are days where she'll completely ignore me, and make fun of me during our lunch period. It hurts, a lot..but I never tell her, because..I just think she doesn't care. Like today, for example, it was a Friday, I was restless and tired..

While I was zoned out, staring outside, she started talking about me..and then one thing from the next, she started making fun of how my hair looked at the moment. Of course, everyone laughed their asses off, but I dunno.. I just didn't laugh at all, because I didn't think it was funny. I get she wants to joke around, but sometimes she hurts my feelings...and she doesn't even know it. 

Then there's the other girl. She's really tall, and she's pretty..she loves kpop, but she's ran to me too.

she's greedy, and she doesn't share. I never share with her..she stole my money away from me, and never paid me back, and she never kept any of her promises. I gave her $25 to buy me stuff for some movie we were watching, because I was saving seats, then she came back with popcorn, soda, colored ice, and cotton candy.. Then when I asked for my things, she "forgot", and said there was nothing left. After I asked for my money back, she went to my friend for ten bucks. I hated her so much...that was so low...it really was. I the end I never took it, because it wasn't mine to begin with. 

Not only that, but she keeps on bringing another thing where we were in phy ed, and I was rushing to check off our pedometer things, then some guy suddenly yelled out "oh my god don't eat me!" 

To to be honest I wanted to run away and cry. Because of hiding all this anger and stress, I started stress eating, which made me gain weight.. Now, I try dancing to burn off pounds, but I dunno, she keeps on bringing it all back up, knocking my encouragement level down. 

I have such great friends -__- Usually, it's never anyone else, it's always these two. If it's not the tall one, it's the genius. She made me stop talking. She made me so awkward..because of every moment I spent with the people I actually considered friends, she was there to snap at me, and make me have to say sorry all the time. She's a hypocrite...

over winter break I didn't try talking to anyone...no one expect for two people I trust with everything...the thing is, is that they're in high school . That's really , because they're the only two people I know who won't hurt my feelings. 

Yeah, moral of the story is, my best friends are my bullies. They're the people that made me socially awkward, and they're the people who made me..into not me anymore .

i need new friends.