Remember how I told you guys about my friend ,Well he ended up ignoring my greetings and my gestures to him. It hurts not being able to talk to him anymore ,he was always here for me.. but I broke his heart in return. I confronted him and kept begging but all he did was stare at me emotionless.I told him I was sorry,I was sorry I made him feel that way,I was sorry I was so foolish.He was my closest friend almost like a brother to me. He was the only friend I could talk to in Korean when we are abroad. We live together in the same house but everytime I try he just ignores me even when I tried cooking for him his favorite kimchi pancakes,he gave them to our foreign exchange parents . That crushed me,I just wish my bestfriend will understand my perspective .I can't feel like that towards a man. Yeah I say "no" to girls who ask me out on a date but that''s because i'm still wounded from my childhood sweetheart saying "no" to me when I asked her to be my girl. Why does bad luck always have to follow me .I just wish Hyunjoon would speak to me again because I don't want to lose another important person in my life.