Today we had a special dance class and made groups and battled...

Igi decided 'democratically' to pick up our partners randomly from a hat - because most people chose that - so Igi walked to get some paper and I yelled angrily: WHO THE DIDN'T RAISE THEIR HAND FOR PICKING OUR PARTNERS OURSELVES?!

and some chick who ABSOLUTELY raised her hand and I just yelled why?!?!

But I know it's 'cause nobody would have picker her -.-''' and then Igi came back and asked why am I being angry and I told him I don't want to pick my partner randomly. And that those people who do, are free to do it amongst them, it's not my problem. and he said he already decided and I should try working with different people to see how it is and I said I didn't want to.[lol, I actually wrote in my CV that I learned working with different people in dance class... and that I know how to do what I'm told. LIES!] and he said: You said you don't wanna pick, someone else said they don't wanna dance! and I said: I don't care what anybody else wants! I wanna dance with them!

and he shrugged and he said: This is the class and you have to do what you're told. and I answered: well then, I hope you're happy and don't ask me why I'm mad again, 'cause now you know. and he frowned at me and I glared back and we kept glaring at each other until he left, because he understood that I was being serious.

1 - 0 for me.

and then he left and came back with the tickets and I just kept frowning the whole time - cause I had decided to do like football players do: complain about it until somebody solves it. In the end, Ioana(my bff) accidentally picked out 2 tickets, BOTH with the same number: 4.

And I picked 6... so I threw it out the window and took one of the same number. xD

So this ticket was in another girl's hand, Raluca, who picked it from Ioana to see what number it was and was planning on keeping it because she's trying extra hard to become Ioana's bff, and take my place. So I asked her to show me the ticket, threw mine out the window and kept it.

So this guy asked: WHO'S IN GROUP 6?! and she yelled angrily: SHE SHOULD HAVE BEEN.

and something just snapped and asked: WHAT THE ?! Are you stupid?! and told her to shut the hell up, because it's none of her business.

So she did. 

And we told Igi we were in the same team and he was really happy because we were happy and... the third person in our team... -.-'''... she was ok(I'm not one to judge so...), but didn't help us at all... Me and Ioana made up the whole choreography and stuff and she was okay in the battle too(freestyle), but not great. Ioana, on the other hand did amazing and I... . I didn't do ANYTHING...

 we lost in the first round and funny thing is that 2 of the judges[including Igi] didn't vote and the third one decided the winner.

Yeah, I'm very disappointed in myself. I feel like a loser... and like I at everything! Which is very true.

I'm gonna ask Igi why do I and what should I work on... next weekend. The next class is on Thursday... and we're gonna battle again. This time I'm really going to keep the ticket I pick and try and see how I feel working with someone else. Or just argue with Igi into letting us pick our own team. xD

It was nice, 'cause in the end, we were leaving and Igi asked us if we were ok... It was so cute and I said we were dealing with it.

Meaning: 

and Raluca was sad and he asked if she was mad at him and she didn't answer and he said: You'll get over it. :) and left. xD The truth is he was kind of mean towards her, but she could have just told him that she didn't like it, but yeah, it wasn't why she was mad right then, she had something else on her mind.

So I got home and did some thinking and now I'm depressed about it. I hate doing bad in ANYTHING.

Like, I know I'm not trying my hardest... but I really try! It ... we messed up the choreo... it was intimidating! There were many people from the Quasar dance group - pro dancers - and it was only our first battle experience and I was SO scared! It should have been only Igi and then tell us what to work on... 

Good news, though, I'm getting a scholarship and I'll keep going to the dance classes! <3

I've had a 2 weeks break because I didn't have money and went back this Sunday and Igi asked me where I've been. <3