before we get to that.. i'd just like to say, i'm happy that being the 'leader' for the first year crowd control comm was taken from my hands and given to someone else yey!!!! and now i'm an official member of two committees! there really should be plus points here or else we'll going to rebel against them... as i've said in previous posts these plus points are life savers. especially with my failing grades.

now down to business... i would just want to say "i'm sorry" to my friends here, especially normibells coz he actually knows the person i'l be disclosing soon, and i know he doesn't really like said person too. but before saying said person's name... which normibells probably has an idea....

started sometime last sem, that guy, let's call him by the name james (apparently that's he's real name XD) started teasing me and openly saying that he has a crush on me (i'm not bragging here, coz it's embarrassing and i don't know if he's just joking or for real). 

• though it doesn't happen often, sometimes when he passes by the table my groupmates and i'll be sitting at the lib, he'll drop by  and do a little skinship or say his feelings in a sort of joke.
• once when he saw me in the discussion room, found in the lib, he was about to make his usual skinship but then back out when he saw my groupmates, he probably got embarrassed or thought of something else, coz i think it was on that same day that he studied with us on that room (but he studies by moving from one place to another so he doesn't sit by us that much).
• he told one of the doctors that i was his crush, although i was sitting some distance away, i can hear them and i knew it was me he was talking about.
• at the canteen, i heard him say to a friend that his girl is in group 12 ---> my group. this happened coz he was sitting with some of our classmates and one of them was a girl. 
• if you've read one of my posts before.. there was something in the mini-prompt about the guy giving the girl her favorite chocolates... ummm... that's what he actually did one morning before our group's discussion. 

BUT... despite his attempts at voicing out his feelings, ummm.. he actually uses some old OPM songs changing some lyrics, and even my groupmates tease me about him sometimes... and he actually took my number from my phone when i was talking with my friend in the library while he was sitting beside me?! unlike other guys i see in the class or any guy for that matter...

he doesn't do much effort in sitting beside me (that's one defining factor about on-going or already in a relationship status lately) . he got my number, right? but he doesn't text. and well for me... everything he says are hard to believe. 

probably he has his own pride or his own priorities - well he's a top student and i'm *cries* struggling. he even said "coz we don't have any tests anymore, we could spend more time again (pffft yeah right ¬_¬) i missed teasing you." ummmm... i really don't want to be teased at. i like fighting with my groupmates, i don't even mind the skinship coz i'm actually treated as a little kid sister or something and i know the real status of things.. 

again... "i'm sorry to my friends" coz i didn't say anything about this especially normi saw him once at IT park studying... well i'm not sure about it, until now. but for those who doesn't know him. he ain't that bad really - he's just pretty loud during lecture, i actually know he's the one talking. he's taller than me but sadly not as tall as my crushes haha, not even taller than my dad. he's intelligent... well, he plays the guitar, he plays sports, he owns a car (this would be really useful lol)... at least that's what i can observe. 

girl's intuition or i'm being too conscious or naive... i don't know... and because i don't know. as he keeps on pulling, i keep on pushing. srsly, my new guy best friend (he actually said it first so i'm calling him that now too) and even my no.1 bully/enemy forever are more affectionate than him with the addition of constant bickering and fighting -but they're the fun fights, irritating but fun. if he's really jealous of my closeness with them then he should make more effort without the double meaning words. what do you think?