so after finding out that one of my high school bffs is also into . i showed her my fanfics here... 

and i realized i had A LOT of unfinished fics. like since last year. 

i am SO embarrassed right now.

but i can't really help it.

i WANT to continue them. REALLY. i mean they're my babies. and i had so much fun making them. Push - . Tic Toc - action-ish. and Be Aware - fluff/

so yeah... they're genre i am not so used to that's why they are a bit more special. and notice how they are all B.A.P fanfics. my second babies here... 

not only am i outdated with updating fanfics. i'm also outdated with KPOP as a whole. i'm an embarrassment. i'm sorry. 

but adulthood is difficult. 

it was also today that i realized i made a blog organizing my fanfics. and. forgot. all. about. it. password. website. and. all. 

i hope i can finish these fanfics one at a time this year. i miss making them. i miss the feels. and because i miss the feels, it makes it a bit difficult. 

it's like reading a good novel. i'll be like "oh how i wish it would be this engaging and easy to read my books/reviewers." then have some little guilt trip. yeah, the guilt trip isn't comfortable. though only settles in for a while. still guilt trip is guilt trip. 

anywhooo... LINE: haeki. SNAPCHAT: themerziah if anyone cares.