To that man who captured my heart in every aspects of his life,

Today''s your birthday Xingtou, and I there's no more I could wish for you. You have it all. I just want you to be happy (and I know that you certainly are) and just enjoy what you do. Just so you know, in ten days, we're gonna be celebrating our first anniversary (Yes, I declared that). I can't believe I've been in love with you for a year! (Tho I know it's unrequited) There were times that I was unfaithful (I had an affair with Jongin and Sehun), but I really can't help but to fall in love with all of the 12 insanely gorgeous boys. Still, you will be the love of my life (next to Hae and Dubu) no matter what. My parents already know that you're my boyfriend! They don't mind. They've gotten used to all of my delusions.

You've grown a year older again. You must treasure your youth and your health; you only live once. Please take care of yourself more bb. If it hurts, it's not bad to pause and take a break. Don't push yourself until you can't bare it anymore. You make me really worried sometimes. I remember when I first heard the news that your waist was injured, but still you kept dancing. I felt really worried that time because seeing that photo of you barely getting yourself together because of the pain made my heart ache. Please stay healthy, not only for your own good, but also for your family and for all the people that love you and support you.

You've come a long way. I pray that your success will continue on and on. I know that God will bless you more because you are such a lovely person, inside and out. You are a good man. And I know that whoever girl you choose to give your heart is indeed very lucky. You got all the qualities a lady wants. You are charming, so it's easy to love you. And when the time comes that you'll choose to settle down with your life, get married and have a family, I'll still be by your side (not literally of course), supporting you and loving you. Even when we grow older and have our own lives, I will never forget you. I am one of your Tinkerbells, and you guys will be forever our Peter Pan. You guys are now a part of me, so forgetting you would be impossible. Someday, I would smile at the memory of being in love with you guys, especially with you, and would happily share these experience with my grandchildren.

Yixing-gege, keep smiling. Your dimple is one of your assets. Seeing that indentation on your cheek somehow tells us that you are happy. I want to see more of your smiles as another year of your life comes. I hope you'll not cry nor be sad, nor be in pain and in vain. I hate to see you cry because you are hurt. I hate to know that you are troubled. But whatever may come, especially with the kind of life you have, stay strong and know that there are people backing you up. I am one of those people. And I am looking forward to see you grow, bloom and become the person you dream of becoming.

I know you may not be able to read this, not to mention understand (but you could always ask Yi Fan anyway), but we never know the circumstances this world could throw. Happy birthday Zhang Yixing. Know that I love you, across the vast seas and great lands, over the mountains and below the valleys, I love you. Someday, I will be able yo meet you, and thank you for the inspiring me and letting me love you.