(THIS WILL BE REALLY LONG SO HOLD YOURSELF)

“Boy, your foundation's too thick.”

Those were the first words I clearly remember I uttered as soon as SHINee stepped on the platform for a picture taking. I saw them one by one: Key, Jonghyun, Taemin, and then Onew. I looked straight at him, passing all the members and just clearly looking straight at him. And as much as I thought I'd be all emotional and start crying – No. I wasn't so emotional at all. I was blank. I was just staring – savoring every moment that he was able to sit there – right in front of me – though we were probably meters apart.

He was thinner than how I thought he was. He was taller than how I imagined and I think he has darker skin than what I thought of as well. And another thing is for sure: Lee Jinki's well known body features were really a no joke. I was sitting there staring at his face but his adams apple and collar bones distracted me. They looked so inviting, and it seemed to me that he was knowingly flaunting those features he has. Oh sure, Jinki, be proud of those yummy bones (whut).

But just like what I was talking about, Lee Jinki's face powder is so thick, and his face was oily. The color of his face didn't really match the color of his body. That was so funny, I wanted to laugh during the presscon but no, it was forbidden. Oh dear, I didn't really know why I was able to notice that thing first. Imperfections over good qualities on a first meeting, why am I so good at this? Hahaha. It was funny how Onew became a victim of my very – judgemental – personality.

Moving on, I was waiting for my emotions to run through me and I was waiting to have my mental breakdown. All other fangirls were crying. A lot of them were sniffing and blowing their noses already. But I was just there, completely just staring at Jinki and then he straightened up his gaze and eyes went to my direction. It was an effortless work, because he would really look at my direction if he straightened up just because I was straightly sitting in front of him. Oh man, this guy over here really looked like a man. He is a man. Oh my gosh, Lee Jinki is a man. Isn't it weird to only realize this now? That Lee Jinki is a man? What. I don't know. I'm sorry. But let me repeat. He is indeed a man. He looked manlier than the rest of the members. I don't know about Minho though. He wasn't there. :'(

As I went out of the venue after the presscon, I felt like I was floating. I was asking myself if it was real. If those people sitting there a while ago were really them. Oh, wait... but wait. I was at the escalator when I realized something.

“Onew looked like something.. Oh yeah, he looked like an alien.”

I mean the alien with big black eyes and big head and long chin. Is this a praise? An insult? I don't know. But he resembled an alien in my eyes.

Remembering everything while walking to the concert venue, I thought how SHINee looked a tired and exhausted. They didn't even greet unlike Dal Shabet and EXO. Key and Jonghyun were the only ones attentive enough to answer the questions. Taemin looked shy and a bit stiff. While Onew... Oh My Gosh, as soon as he stepped on the platform until the photos were taken and as soon as they sat there for interview, I SWEAR HE LOOKED LIKE A SNOB TO ME. He looked a bit pissed off and unhappy. I was intimidated at his smile (yes, he smile suddenly intimidated me). He looked like somewhat strict and a bit serious – way different than what he was in my mind.

Jumping to the concert. Mind you. I have to stand up with my wedge. HAHAHAHA. Thanks to my height that I had to support myself with extra heels. I stood there for more than 2 hours waiting for SHINee while hearing other artists and seeing them on stage. I couldn't move for it was too crowded near the stage. And yes, when EXO came before SHINee, I AM TELLING YOU IT WAS WORSE THAN BEING SANDWICHED OR SQUEEZED OFF INSIDE A CAN OF SARDINES. Thank God I am used on the same situation inside the train when going to school.

I was already tired when EXO finished performing but then a huge white curtain covered the huge LCD screen and I was like.. “Oh so what do we have here?” SHINee's VCR came out on that white curtain and soon, the curtain dropped and SHINee appeared – singing Dreamgirl.

They were in the main stage and I was on the front stage at the end of the ramp. , man. I tried tiptoeing but I couldn't see any SHINee – or any micstand.

Panic moment. Oh My Gosh. I need to see SHINee.

Tiptoe again.

There you go, small Onew on the farthest part of the stage dancing. Tiptoe. Tiptoe. Tiptoe. While being squeezed hardly by the other fans in the SVIP.

Then Lucifer came in. Eff. Why aren't you coming on the front stage. Can't I see you? Oh My Gosh. Why? Why? Why? No. Tiptoe. I see Onew again dancing. Why do I only see that alien when I'm tiptoeing? Where's the sight of the other members? Tiptoe again. Oh there you go, Tiny Jjong.

Stranger came in. They started singing. Oh. Okay. So are they not coming out on the front stage to just maybe have some little time closer to the fans? Ugh. This group. The other groups were at the front stage for so long. Why aren't you coming out like them?! WHAT?!

Then Beautiful came in. A loud “AREEEEUMMMDAAWWOOO!!” from the fans and SHINee themselves was heard inside the coliseum.

Then fudge people started screaming and then I saw on the monitor that Jinki and Dino were coming together towards the front stage.

Ready your heart, Eloi. Here comes your snobbish alien love.

BOOM. There you go, Jinki, closest to the closest, standing there in front of me singing the line of Beautiful I couldn't even remember anymore.

Again, he was so tall.. and oh, his face powder decreased a bit now it didn't look awkward and ugly at all. He was sweating, but oh my alien Jinki his features, when closer, were a lot more dominant. That Alien Jinki whose nose, jawline, collarbones, and cheeks were greatly exposed. Then he looked down, looking at my direction.

The word did not stop for me, but it felt like it was only Jinki and I inside. I heard nothing – not even his voice. I was looking at him, and I knew a smile automatically appeared on my face. I am not calm, but I am not as hyper as everybody. I cheerfully lifted up my right hand and waved at him – cutely uttering his name “Onew~” as if I'm just calling my child at a short distance.

I'm sure he wasn't able to hear that call, and I'm not so sure if he was able to see me just happily waving and not spazzing. After looking down and staying on that same position for about 7 seconds, he moved to the opposite area, danced for a while and went back to the main stage. I swear I head myself whispering, “No, Onew, don't go yet~” and yes, it was just a whisper, and yes, because I was looking at Onew all along, I can't remember seeing Jjong so close anymore.

Then Key and Taemin went on the front stage now, dancing and singing. KIBUM HAS REALLY FAIR SKIN I SWEAR HE WAS SO WHITE AND ALL PLUS HIS BLACK HAIR OKAY I'M NOT SPAZZING. I looked at Taemin and though he was a bit thin, he still has his cheeks. Oh those cheeks. Cheeky Taem! Going back to Key. I swear he is literally Shining.

Then they went back to the main stage, sang WSS, and then it ended.

WOW. JUST WOW.

I was in a devastating roller coaster ride of emotion because of SHINee – oh, specifically ONEW. You alien leader.

Personally, just like what I wanted to express. Onew looked a bit strict, serious, and snobbish for me. Key, in contrast, looked a lot friendlier than him. Onew looked like that serious hottie hearthrob in school who was aware that he's good looking, while Key was a silent hottie who smiles all the time and treats everybody nicely. This is funny, coz I think I have different opinion as others, but really, that's what I think right now.

Lee Jinki left me a different expression. But you know what? I love him even more because of what I was able to see. His intimidating smile. His serious face. His expression. The way his eyes and the way he stares, they were so striking. Yes. I could clearly remember how intoxicating and captivating his eyes were. They were like two mysterious places that I want to get lost in. I loved him even more. I loved the fact that I got to see his imperfections first. I was able to appreciate Jinki's serious expression, and then his smiley face. I don't know. I just appreciate him.

This is not what I expected. I expected myself to cry, to be all emotional, and be out of my mind for the whole week after Sept. 7. But I'm here right now, energetic, very effective, and so lively. The concert gave me so much energy, and it was the complete opposite of my expectation.

You might find me weird, but it seemed like I've known Jinki for so long that my heart was already familiar of his presence. It didn't panic. Instead, it felt happy and genuinely contented to know that yes, for real, Lee Jinki was able to stand there.

I don't know if I could be able to tell you how happy I am. With happy I don't mean jumpy, spazzy, and all crazy. I am just here, sitting in front of my laptop, silently reminscing what happened yesterday, feeling disappointed of the performances that I wasn't able to see, but eventually smiling at the thought that yes, after almost four years, I was able to see him, at that close distance.

And yes, he made me want to work with him in the future. Wait for me, Lee Jinki! I am going to be one of the organizers your management will be working with in the future, and I could be that press in front of you taking pictures and writing articles for you. Just wait, Lee Jinki. I won't let you be snobbish on me again. /laughs/

PS: Remember Jinki. I love you even more so your problem now doubles. /winks/