To the world’s most perfectly imperfect man, the first guy that I really fell for but don’t know me, the one who is like the entire world to me despite living miles apart, the exact same man who never knew of my existence: Happy Birthday ♡

It has been 5 years, and every year I’m just ever so grateful for your birth. If it wasn’t for you, there would be many things I would have never achieved.

Since it is your 30^th birthday, I shall list 30 things I love about you:

1.       I love how imperfect you are, yet to me you are the most perfect being in the world.

2.       I love your voice. It might not be the best in the world, it is the best to me.

3.       I love your smile. The smile that is so rarely seen, yet it is so meaningful when it is felt.

4.       I love your love for your family. How you never forget them despite your tight schedules.

5.       I love your love for your fans. Even when you are serving the country, you never forget to satisfy us.

6.       I love your glare. It practically turns me into goo whenever you do it

7.       I love how you care so much. You don’t want anyone to worry for you.

8.       I love how you are so dorky. Maybe it is just cute to others, but it shows that you are trying really hard to fit in but it is just not your cup of tea.

9.       I love how insecure you are. It makes you try even harder to succeed to become who you are today.

10.   I love your obsession over things. It’s so easy to identify what you like and hate.

11.   I love how unsubtle you are. You never fail to express your feelings though you at riddles many of the times.

12.   I love your neck, your chest, your collarbone. My quiet obsession over those areas. I always wanted to take a bite at those areas.

13.   I love your tiny hands. I’m sure it will fit in perfectly into mine.

14.   I love your cap obsession. It makes you look like a small boy, utterly too cute for my liking.

15.   I love how you care about your members. Even using the weirdest way, you do show your care in whatever means available.

16.   I love your AB mindset. How you think so differently from others makes you so unique.

17.   I love your money-minded mind. Okay no, actually I hate this, but I love it because it allows me to stand a chance to see you at Mobit even though you are in enlistment.

18.   I love your love for singing. How you put your entire mind, soul and heart into a song when you sing it. I feel it, and it’s obviously affecting me.

19.   I love your photos. Your selcas never fail to make my day, my week, or even just make me complete. It makes me feel you are with me.

20.   I love how attention-seeking you are. Because if it isn’t for that, I wouldn’t have ever notice you.

21.   I love how you love to babble random English phrases. It’s hot for sake. Please don’t kill me okay.

22.   I love how you try so hard to fit in. Because that just makes you even more special when you stand out.

23.   I love how you are so straightforward. Yet you are afraid people who dislike you for it but that never stops you for doing otherwise.

24.   I love how you make me fall for every part of you though it doesn’t make any sense.

25.   I love how you brought me into the Super Junior fandom. Because if it wasn’t for you, I would have never met so many amazing people who is important to me now.

26.   I love how you make me feel so secure. You don’t know me, and I only met you once, yet your presence in my life is worth as much as my parents.

27.   I love how you make me feel special. I might be one of the millions who like you, but the wave you gave me the very first time I saw you, that was special enough for me.

28.   I love how you make me feel that I can achieve something despite not being special or perfect. My perfect role model.

29.   I love how you gave me life. Supporting me through the smallest and most subtle way, yet it means so much to me.

30.   I just love you.

Maybe that would not really sum up my entire feelings for you, and obviously it is really hard to think of something that I like you since I love every part of you. But I’m thankful for you being here, thankful of your coming to this Earth. Thankful of you being my bias.

2 years is a long journey, but I promise to wait. Promise to support you through your insecurities. I might not have been there with you since the beginning, but I want to continue to stay by you till the end.

You don’t ever have to notice me, but just you living on this surface have made the biggest impact in my life.

I love you, and Happy Birthday.

Ps, If anyone was interested to know if I send Yesung any gifts for his birthday, I did. I gave him 1 cap, 2 yewook shirts (obviously one for Ryeowook) and a handwritten Korean letter. I got my friend to help me send it to him early this month, but he has not worn my cap... so yeah. Still waiting.