Some stuff...

I don't really want to write fanfics anymore... they don't make me happy. I realized it makes me more stressed out. I started it out of enjoyment but now there's no pleasure in writing anymore.

I also feel like at this point, I'm writing for people and not for myself... I was able to get through 7 chapters writing to no one but myself, going at my own pace. But ever since I put it up on AFF, I feel I'm forced to write for other people, when they ask me to update or when they ask me to bring 2 people back together... 

I hate this. The reason I put it up on AFF was so that I could get feedback on how I was doing... but I realized that I got addicted to what people wanted me to do, and suddenly I felt compelled to listen to them. At the same time, I don't want to always write to no one, otherwise I feel like I'm not making any progress and there's no point in writing anymore. 

Ahh ;A; I don't really know what to do... 

Like I mean, it took me a month, deliberating whether or not I should make an account on AFF or not... and at first, when I did, I was surprised at all the support that was coming in. It's really nice that there's these people who liked what I wrote... I'm a generally pessimistic person so that was such a huge boost for me. 

Now it's kinda just like... Oh, I have to write the chapter because so and so asked me to update it. I'm not trying to say I'm annoyed that some people asked me to update it; it just means you're excited and you can't wait for the next chapter<3 I get it, I seriously do. I'm just rambling about how I'm such a party-pooper and I always take everything the wrong way :C I can make everyone's smile turn upside down... ahaha. 

So anyways, with that said, I just wanted to say that I can't guarantee that I will continue S&C anymore... I WILL TRY but I honestly can't guarantee it :C 

And the oneshot that I told some people that I started to write, I will get that done within this week, I promise. <3 

hugs and kisses,
taechnicality 



P.S. If I'm annoying people with my blog posts, please let me know :c I'll stop posting here if it's irritating... ;~; 

 

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MirzaKun #1
You need to find some middle point..between what you want to write and what people wants you to write. Not that is must to write down what others ask you to, not a at all, I think that as THE writer you should always write what you feel right, and always be ready for what the others are going to say about it, either good or bad.

I one of those that usually ask for more chapters, only that thought I don't believe it right to not respect the writers choices, it's your story not others, they are your thoughts, and is up to others to read or not, so don't let things like this get the best of you. Try writing something completely yours and share it here, see if whatever you get after will make you happy or not. Take your time and relax ^^
paper-hearts #2
I know what you feel. I often feel like that. For example, don't feel like writing this week. Just do at your own pace. Give yourself a break. Sometimes the will to write comes back ;) /hugs
taecbae #3
just do what you want to do.dont force urself bcoz of the others. Just enjoy ur writing <3 FIGHTING!!!!!!!!!!!! ^0^
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