Welp I hate to say that it has come to this

But I'm considering leaving the fandom

Leaving kpop in general

Because I'm just not into it as I used to be.

And because of it, I no longer want to write anymore. Writing was my last thing. Id given up on everything else I liked to do because of my perfectionism. And now my beloved writing....oh well. Can't say I didn't see it coming.

I might just...go and live out my boring life. School and work, maybe attend a wedding or two for a friend or family member. Just live alone and live all mundane. I'm sick too so I mean really...I just don't care anymore. Society will look at me as weak if I go around talking about suicide while also telling me everyone is valuable and worthy and I will be selfish by killing myself. so instead of hearing all that every day I'd will literally breathe until breathing is no longer an option. 

In all honesty I'd rather not be here. 

But I guess I was put here for a reason. So I have no right to cut my life short because of how I feel in this fleeting moment.

Anyway...

Its just a heads up.

I will leave all of my work here, if you're wondering. I couldnt just take everything away like that. 

Ugh. 

k bye