Whenever I want to be nice to people and I do nice things, somehow, someway, it always backfires. 

And I keep telling myself not to be selfish, but also to stop doing these nice things because I know the outcome.

Yet I never listen to myself.

Like, I'm so pissed off right now. Not just for myself, but for a whole lot of other people. 

But I don't even feel like going into it rn.

I will just stop taking the initiative to do nice things for people. and only do them when they are asked for. Since that is the only way...