Leaving AFF.

Yesterday, I finished my exams and I finally graduated from 9th grade. 

So I had the time now and I sad and I made a big decision.

I, MessyBuns, am leaving from AsianFanFics.

Now, you may ask, why would you do this?

No, I am not leaving the kpop fandom, and I am not giving up on writing because I don't have any time to spare for AFF or anything. I have plenty of time for AFF.

It's just that I feel like I FAILED.

I didn't make any friends, even though I was willing to, because of my exams. I admit that my behavior to the people who wanted to befriend me was really bad. I feel ashamed of myself.

My stories, I deleted most of them, and people were not interested in them anyway. I barely got like 6 subscribers, and no one commented. I did not feel supported.

I couldn't keep up with my Review Shop.

So, I don't know if anyone actually cares, which is unlikely, but I am now announcing my departure from AFF.

You may see me again. I may be under another username.

bye.

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Blinkeu_21
#1
What???!!!!
How can you say that...
We're friends right?
Come on, Don't give up...
but if you make another account please don't forget to add me ^_^...!
Good luck to your new school life....
Innocentbubble
#2
Hi! We don't talk but I love to make friends and so far I have made only 3-4 hahha lolzz hey don't leave we can become friends :) btw on my stories no one comments kkekek but I am stuburn xD:D don't leave *puppy eyes*
2am-ramen #3
Oh wow. fantastic baby. this is so ironic -__- so from the day I added you on FB, you forgot that a friend called 'yozora-hoshi' was there?
O_O
OI, YOU STUPID!!! I was always here, you could've talked to me y'know? BAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAKA!!!!
I do care if you're leaving you know? You're a friend that matters to me (and it sounds weird, cuz we haven't talked a LOT but it's completely true ==) so. I'm gonna respect your decision to leave aff, but, if you don't add me from another USERNAME, I WILL HUNT YOU IN FACEBOOK AND TORTURE YOU.

I can't accept you to simply forget I'm here =="

Stupid.
mooncakes
#4
You know, this is kind of funny. I was in your situation two years ago, except for the exams. I made three friends (whom I never talked to), and I failed to interact with my readers and friends. I had a story before with two subscribers without any comments, either. I was envious over all those other writers who were featured and got several subscribers and comments every minute I clicked the "refresh" button. So I quitted a long time ago and refused to come back after deleting my stories.

But later, I returned. I was thinking that if I just stopped and complained about not feeling supported, then I was cheating myself. If I wanted to feel supported, I could've tried harder or even cheat my way to being popular (like writing fandoms that I don't care about, but were popular). I knew that I was going to leave again, and I needed some kind of motivation. Therefore, when I changed my username, I create a story for a contest. Did I win? No. But did it motivate me? Yes. I've improved, and I slowly made my way through most of the hard times I've been through.

Some of us are born to be stars. Others are not. Therefore, we may have to shape ourselves to become one, or ask others for help. It's a pity that you're leaving this site, but I do hope that you return with a feeling that you should improve and continue rather than quitting because "no one cares." Because in this world, there's no such thing as "no one cares." There's at least one person in this world who cares, but won't open up to say that he or she does.

Anyways, congratulations on your graduation! I hope you have an awesome future ahead of you! :)
ForeverFlippingA #5
I agree with the person below. With the amount of writers and stories here on AFF, it's hard to get noticed and virtually nobody starts off popular except those who already have a lot of friends here in the first place before they even started writing stories. Please don't feel bad about it, it seriously happens to everyone here. The only way you will really fail is if you give up without doing your best and trying your hardest, alright?

I am so sorry I never had the chance to read your stories, I actually barely have time to get on AFF, post my own stories, reply to messages and browse through the wonderful stories here at the same time. But if you stay and not delete your stories, maybe more people like me can discover your stories and enjoy them, right? XD

Even though we don't really know each other, I do understand how you feel and support you whatever decision you make in the end. Whether you want to stay or leave for good, just remember my PM box is always open for you, okay?

Good luck! <3
jeppfan
#6
Aw honey :(

Truet me when I say, no author just starts off popular. Part of the game here is marketing and appealing to your audience. A lot of people write amazing stories and only get 100 readers at the very max. Then others will write so-so and even awful stories, and they'll have thousands of readers despite the fact that its a cheesy, overplayed, unrealistic plot.

Congrats on finishing the 9th grade! I hope you did well in this year, and I wish you even better luck in the future.

Now, with that having been said, its not easy at all to make friends, especially online. Especially when I was younger, I was awkward and always let.conversations die horrible deaths. I can tell you that I am in college, and its hard to make friends there too. And I've drifted away from my high school friends, so I only have like 2 or so friends IRL. Don't feel like you've failed because your work isn't popular, and definitely don't feel bad about the friends thing.

Quitting is your decision, but don't feel upset or regretful.

This unnie wishes you the best of luck with whatever you choose! Hwaitoming!!
ToneHarmonic
#7
Hi there. :) I may not know you personally but I know you aren't a failure. You must let this get you down, ok? Keep fighting and persevering! You'll make it.

Whatever your decision is, I can't stop you. However, if you ever decide to come back, I hope we meet again
dinofishx3
#8
.............. *chains you to a tree*

What.

Don't leave me. Please. Omg. NO ;_;
live_laugh_love
#9
Well if this is your decision....you were a really interesting, kind person while we were just becoming friends
mymikp
#10
I WAS LIKE THAT IN FIRST! LIKE SERIOUSLY! BUT LOOK AT ME NOW! 78 SUBSCRIBER FOR MY STORY!! THAT'S BECAUSE I DIDN'T GIVE UP! DON'T YOU DARE! AND I'M HERE WHENEVER YOU NEED ME!
asianandproud
#11
I cant say anything. Its your decision. If you feel that way then, goodbye. Goodluck in life and never stop believing in your dreams even if times like this are rough.
KnightShine #12
Well if you want to leave that is your choice but know this... we all have those moments. I didn't update any of my stuff for over a month once and that's okay. AFFers realize that everyone on here has a life other than ff (as sad as that may be).

So you didn't fail. You're simply human. :) as for not feeling supported. We also all have those moments. Even if you write an amazing story, maybe only two people will see it. But isn't it still worth it? Maybe try coauthoring a story! So that someone else can promote it as well as help you create something phenomenal.

Either way though, I hope you reconsider. It would be sad if you left. :)