Is it weird that I am in love with my bias? (Oh Sehun)

Okay, so this is awkward. I haven't told anyone, but you people are also kpop fans and I think you would understand or probably be in the same situation I am in.

I think I am in love with this guy. 

He is not a guy from my school.

He is not a guy that I generally know either.

He is a kpop idol. That lives in Korea. And speaks korean. He is also a celebrity.

You see, I live in Greece. I do not speak korean. And I am not some gorgeous celebrity. I am just a fifteen year-old nerd that hopes to get into med school in the States so that I don't end up in this stupid country with no future whatsoever.

...his name is Oh Sehun and he is the maknae and lead dancer of EXO-K. 

Don't ask me why I love him, because I honestly have no idea.

His smile, his dorkiness, the fact that he is kind of always quiet but y at the same time, his sweetness and his cuteness, his pink hair, his fashion statements, his voice, his lisp, the way he moves and dances, his everything. I love everything about him. And I don't know why.

I am just naturally attracted to him and I feel like...crap.

I have become very obsessive and delusional, and I have even started to hate Luhan and Kai, even though I used to be both a HunHan and a SeKai shipper. What in the world is wrong with me.

I have had many other biases previously, but I have never felt like this before.

And I feel very sorry for myself because I know that me and him, we can never be together. It is impossible.

It is always going to be this sad, one-sided, unrequited love.

 

I have been crying and feeling depressed a lot lately.

Why are you doing this to me, Oh Sehun. Why?

  ...I really can't get mad at this face, like, seriously.

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LuluLover77 #1
I wish I had you guys as my friends, then we'd hold each other together and cry together and talk about our future with our biases(hey a girl can dream, right?) I'm an emotional wreck these days because of Kim Taehyung.
LuluLover77 #2
I'm in love with Kim Taehyung of BTS. And now that they've gained so much popularity internationally I've been scared and been bawling my eyes out with this dull aching pain in my chest. Don't get me wrong I am happy and very proud of them but I guess I am just afraid for no reason. And I've been reading too much fanfics lately and I guess I somehow at one point managed to picture everything out like how we'd meet, our future and everything(like even if we met *never likely to happen* he'd notice me). I even see him in my dreams and he's the only constant thing that is keeping me sane.
I am weeping as I write this, with self pity. I wish I could stop all of these strange emotions.
Fangirlforlife5 #3
You're not the only one.. I have similar feelings for BTS' Jimin.. but I know I'm all alone in this and I should snap out of it and that I'm responsible for my feelings, even if it hurts. Sigh~ It is hard to be a fangirl.
applesfromsehun #4
I'm so late to all of this but right now I too am feeling this way. I can't get over him for some reason /.\ I keep telling myself that I'm delusional and i'll never be by his side, let alone ever know him. I keep telling myself that once i'm older that it'll go away but now that i'm older the thought of Sehun still lingers in my head like crazy. All I want to do is make him happy and see his smile everyday but i know that it's just a dream. It'll be always a dream.


ｌｏｖｅ ａｌｗａｙｓ ｃｏｍｅ ｗｉｔｈ ｐａｉｎ．
orshazm #5
i love kim namjoon as a man, i love every inch of him, i accepted all his flaws and i dont think i'll get married before him..call me delusional, but im 22, bts is my one and only kpop group and namjoon is my one and only bias..never been into kpop before bts, so i dont think im in any kind of young-fangirl-disease..this is not young love, not a mania, this is just me loving him..
Tashamaylynn #6
i have the same thing :( your not alone ughhh where is my future bf to take me away :/
Zhiiee #7
And I thought I was the only one suffering from this goddamn feeling.
little_glitter #8
T.T I used to think people that were so attached to their idols as crazy delusional people, but as i got older, no that i am 16 idk why i have grown into the same situation as you with BTS' Jungkook. It's like a disease, we are impossible even if i get to meet him it'd only be for a slight moment at a fansign or something. T.T why do our feelings do this to us?
sarangHUN #9
omo. your story is just like.... mine.
and, unluckily, sehun is my bias too.
our differences are i still like both of luhan and kai but i don't like it when sehun being paired by those guys.
i ever cried at school just bcs of him, oh it's embarrasing.
Starwatch3r #10
im with sugaribaechan. come yourself gurl. lol your so cute!
your sehun feels lol.

btw here is a story for you guys. its what you guys are feeling right now.
http://www.asianfanfics.com/story/view/396031/only-if-you-know-romance-you-exo-love-sadness-lay
jae-park #11
I can understand what you feel. I thought i am the only one who's weird in this world.

All my friend, who's also a kpop fans--said that i am mad. They told me not to love them, "You're stupid," "You must be kidding,"
But they don't know what i am feeling inside, it's more than just a fan girl feeling. I am in love with him.

Fangirl love is just fans-idols. They don't really love them. they love them, they do. but they don't give their full heart.

I am seriously too deep falling for him, that I feel like... I am willing to die for him.

It's almost impossible for him to like me, 99,9999999999999999999999999999999999999999%, but i got 0,00000000000000000000000000000000000000001% to be his.


You are not weird. I am here too, seriously in love with him (KRIS.)
EdPotter #12
umm sorry but i chose B... i do have many bias (current bias : Zelo) but i don't think i love him more than a celeb-crush that enough to make me die for him..
MintyPetals #13
omfg. i know whatchu mean
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