So...my boyfriend and I were playing a turn based strategy game called Civalization V, and we were on opposite teams, unlike our usual play together method. This was really fun and I was enjoying myself. 

But then I went to war (in game) with Denmark. Now I wasn't as advanced as my boyfriends technology, but I was second best...and I was on the verge of winning the attack against Denmark. 

When my boyfriend declares war on me.

I'm propelled back to my own city, to see he has my capital surrounded and is going to take it down.

I actually started physically shaking. I was so...disappointed...I thought we'd had an unspoken seize fire until the weaker civs were taken down...apparently not. So, within a few turns he takes my capital, all the while saying how he feels bad for doing it and all that shiz...but he still does it, even as I delete my troops evidently, to get them out of his way. 

But then he says how he's happy that it turned out the way it did, considering all the planning he did.

That pushed me over, I actually started crying and having a mini panic attack.

All over a game.

I just...I felt a little bit upset. Was I the only one thinking that maybe, just maybe, the courtesy of allowing the other to prepare would be allowed in the game? I wasn't prepared...because I really wasn't expecting it, I was at war with someone else, how could I expect it? I thought there was a rule we had going that we wouldn't attack each other till the others were out of the game, not turn around and betray the others trust while they're in a war.

It's just really shaken my thoughts of him at the moment. And now he feels bad, because I'm automatically kicked from the game because he did that...and I'm trying to assure him I'm fine, all the while holding back tears and a panic attack...

I know it's stupid to get upset over a game, it's more towards how...naive I am...just, I always do this in games and real life. People always wait till I'm at my weakest to turn on me...I trust people too much...this happens in WoW, LoL and StarCraft...with family and friends...why am I so trusting of people, to not...try and get the upper hand?

To me...it's sneaky...and it seriously makes the trust I have in people drop...yet I always forgive them....

I want a hug, I want to cry and I want to curl up in a ball and sleep...I just...

...stupid game