My sad life all rolled up into ONE day

  1. My best friend moved today
  2. It's been officially a week since I've seen B.A.P and I miss them ever so dearly
  3. ....

For 3. ... Okay, if you're really my friend, then you would know how much I love Lee TaeMin.

How much I do for him.

How much I feel for him.

How much I love him.

 

 

 

Well...

All that changed today.

I don't love Lee TaeMin the way I have for the past years anymore.

I always had this feeling ever since Younique's MaxStep was released. When I saw him, he changed so much that I had chills slide down my spine.

Yes, I was scared. I had the feeling that Lee TaeMin wasn't the same.

Then his first solo "U" came out (in To the Beautiful You). His voice matured, and I was very proud of him, but the fact that he's growing up scared me.

Then, BoA's Disturbance came out, featuring him. Of course, as a TaeMint, I was 100% jealous of her. But, hey, I'm just a fangirl. It's not like I could ever do better. And it's not like I could ever prevent him from changing. He's grown up so much.

 

 

Finally, We Got Married happen. 

 

Today, I was texting one of my friends, and while I waited, I stared at my derp TaeMin wallpaper. I never, in my whole entire life, thought that I would have the urge to change it.

The name that popped up in my head was

Moon JongUp

Yes, I'm... 'over' TaeMin. And it hurts like hell. T.O.P was my first bias, but TaeMin was my first love. I cried during chorus class haha :']

 

The worst part is that I got over Lee TaeMin on SHINee's 5th anniversary.

 

 

 

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-endorphins #1
You changed to Jongup?
TheChuglyOne #2
Aww, that's rough. I'm sorry. It sounds like you've been having a hard time :/
Taemin really did change a lot, he doesn't seem like the maknae of SHINee anymore. It's kind of sad.
But, you know what? I always change my bias'. Granted, it doesn't seem like I was as much into Zelo or Jinyoung as much as you were, but I know that it'll get better for you.
B.A.P are my favourite band. Sometimes, though, I go to another band for a while, and forget about them. It happened when I was getting into Infinite and EXO, and I so badly wanted to stop writing my B.A.P ff and write an Infinite or EXO one.
Right now, I'm into SHINee and Suju more than B.A.P, but I know that I'll always end up going back to B.A.P. In the end, you can never truly forget them.

Beautiful Target and Baby Goodnight are my favourite kpop songs, because they are the first songs I was ever like, "Wow. I love this." Kpop or normal. They were also my first kpop songs.
But, I rarely listen to them, but when I do after a while of not listening to them, it's even better. Better than I remembered :)
Maybe you just need a brief break from Taemin? Besides, who can resist Jongup's smile.
I'm fickle with bias', but I never forget my firsts. Zelo was my first ultimate bias, and I know that even if I have bias' where I love them loads, I will always like Zelo more than I do, in the back of my mind.
Don't worry about change, it allows us to mature. Taemin's getting older, he was just a kid when he debuted, he's an adult now :)

I hope that everything gets sorted out for you :)
Hwaiting <3
If you ever need to talk or just rant to someone, feel free to PM me :)
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