If I wanted to die one day, I would not think "they wouldn't want me to do this, they wouldn't" they as in BIGBANG. That's what I would like to think. That BIGBANG is the reason why I shouldn't die. That they're the reason I'm alive, and I need them. But that's not true. I wouldn't think about their lives before mine. I wouldn't wonder if they wanted me to die. I wouldn't remember their quotes about appreciating life right away. 

 

But what I would think is how happy they've made me. They don't know about me, and I honestly don't know about them. Most fans will think "Jiyong oppa's favorite color is this" "Seungri oppa's favorite number is this" and then they think they know them. 

 

"He is this tall"

"They're blood type is this"

"They weigh this much"

 

But those are the little details. The unimportant facts. We don't know about the meaningful things. What they want in life. Why they love music. And all of those. The only things we know is what they've told us. And sometimes, the things they tell us could be lies, but we wouldn't know that. Because we always believe what they say. But they only tell us lies because we shouldn't know everything about them. Not everyone should know the true BIGBANG, only the ones they can rely on. So if they could rely on us as indivisuals, maybe we'd get to know the real important things. But if we truly knew them, we'd know them by heart and they would tell us "...yeah, you're right." 

 

We don't know them enough to judge them. But we would like to get to know them more. Though if you think about it, everything I just said is how you describe your friends. Not just any friend, the important ones. And like BIGBANG, they are my important friends. Ones I'd like to know more, so I can have them rely on me. 

 

So basically everything I just said might not mean what I'm really trying to say, so to sum it up: they're my friends. The important ones. And I admire my friends truly. And I will do whatever it takes to make them happy, and keep them happy, since they've already done that for me. Like I said in my bio, "I'm in very much in debt to them."