I've been in deep thought since a few days about why I am in love with EXO, and I know many would say that it's silly to write about it, but I just want to explain why I fell in love with them.

It was on 2011 when I started to look for kpop groups on the internet since my best friend introduced Super Junior to me on 2010. Since then I found their language kinda interesting, so I decided it was a good time to give them a chance.

When I knew that SM was under their work, I followed everything they updated about them, and on almost the end of the year, a kid called my attention on his teaser.

It was then that I fell in love with who was called Kai back then. Many people tell I fell because of his body and looks, but they're all wrong. 

The true reason was simple, I found in him what I also found deep inside of me, the passion on dance. I loved to dance since I'm 4, but according to my dad, the dance academy I went since then until my 14 years old it wasn't as good as he wanted it to be for me. So I left the dancing behind until I was 18. On those 4 years that I didn't go to a dance academy, I spent my passion on the school acts that included dances. 

What I saw back then in 2011, was not a man, but a boy that was just like my inside self.

Since then, I've follow them, and their teasers as their members skill on dance cathed my attention in every posible way. My parents said I was crazy when I told them I wanted to keep dancing by my own, but it was my dream. Someday I'll be on stage giving my hearth and soul, I know I will.

The first time I saw their showcase where I saw their dance skill again, I was happy to see a familiar face on the talking part of the presentation.

You know, I felt happy when the lights went off and I saw a see of different light sticks wave there, it was as if they as much as me, showed how excited they were for them.

When they walked on stage after their presentations, I could see their faces like the true guys they were. They weren't mans back then, they were still kids who were nervous about everything, you could saw it in their faces, by blushing or just being shy.

I saw them respect  their hyungs in every move they made.

And I was happier than before, because I knew they will be different and be good.

Since they debuted my heart belonged to them. To the 12 boys that still are those 12 kids I met just almost 2 years ago.

I can say I'm an EXOtic and that I'll never stop loving and supporting them, but I know someday we'll have an official name, and we'll love it even if some of the fans don't like it at all.

Just like everything they went through in all this time, this family of fans loved them even after they hair, clothes styles, words changed.

I saw what they were with the pass of time. Let's just say, I could see their hearth and souls on and off stage, and I know I wasn't the only one who did it.

I remember their stage names, but I decided that I'll call them by the names with who they were bring to this world.

I met back them to 12 amazing and passioned boys, let me introduce them to you... as to who I saw back them.

Jongin was the first I met, I loved his shy side as much as his wild and passioned side on stage.

Luhan was the second one, at first I was thinking that he was to handsome in everything he made, but I knew better than he wasn't just a pretty face.

Tao was the guy who I met in the 3rd place,his sharp look made me want to make him smile, and then I saw his sweet side and he made my day since then.

Yixing was the next, in him I saw another part of me reflected, I saw my shy and fragile self while dancing, and I found myself as my other self.

Sehun was the other boy I met, he was the serious guy by them, but his cute voice made everything about him change my mind, and it was good after all.

Then Minseok came, at first I believed he was different from the rest, his face was different in a good way, and then I saw that I'll love him no matter how he looked.

Jongdae was next, I just couldn't believe he had an amazing voice with such a small body, he let me fell in love with it more than with his looks.

Baekhyun was the other one I met, and I didn't look at him by his beautiful face, but because his voice and his eyesmile.He's just a wonderful boy.

The guy who I met after him was Joonmyun, who I knew was an angel since the beggining, he was so tender and I loved him from his lovely way to protect his bandmates.

Kyungsoo was the boy who catched my attention the most, his voice was unique and it make me dream about it and sleep well everynight, he calmed me.

Wufan was the boy I loved the most, I knew he was a leader that will be special, and he didn't dissapointed me, he was everything I dreamed for EXO M.

Chanyeol was the last one I could met, even with his happy self, he shocked me when he first talked at all, and made my whole world turn around in a good way.

Many people said my love for them wouldn't last forever, but they were so wrong, because after all this time, I've been with them even when so much fans left them because of things they didn't bring to us in the time they spected.

Yeah, the true reality is that they didn't have a comeback yet and that made some get angry, but I take this as a time for them to show us how much they want to get better as persons and artists.

I just want to say that I'm proud of them, and I'll tell you why.

They debuted on april 8th, with an album that only have 6 songs on it. Along with 23 teaser who made them the first band with so much videos before debut.

2 of them were ballads, two of them were the rap and fast songs, and the others 2 were the one who could make you want to dance along with them.

Those 6 songs had beautiful meanings behind them. And you want to know what I loved the most? That they gave everything of them to make every single minute of them the best for us.

I love both groups the same, because I love the members as one, like their theme says, We are One.

Even when there are 8 korean member and 4 chinese on it.

This theme of them is so right, because it doesn't only talk about them, but about us, their fans and them all.

You know why admire them the most? It long but I'll just say it because it's something I always wanted to write about it.

-There were barriers with their languages but nothing made them apart because of that, they broke it and now can be okay with the rest.

-They suffered off stage, they were hurt but always were on stage after all the pain just for us.

-They weren't with their families on their trainee days, they got injured and depressed but that didn't stop their dreams.

-They met on the way, and were with other idols of the same agency since they entered the SM.

-Some of them were still on school, but they graduated after all and gave the best to made their dreams come true.

-They were called names and were hurt about it, but they showed that everyone was wrong about them and let us see a side of them that will love with time.

-Even being pushed and even when they fell on airports, they cared first for the fans around them before them, they wanted us safe and sound.

-They support each other when they were apart on their promotions, and always smiled for us even when they were sad.

-They always bowed in a 90° way, showing how much they appreciated everything they recieved with time.

-They cried because they were so touched about something we made for them, and every word they said after that, made us love them even more.

-They were caring about each other, and gave their shoulders to their tears or sleepy eyes.

-They had fun and smiled with every gift we gave them, and used every single gift we gave them with love.

-They celebrated every award between them and us, every birthday party was a funny way to show their young side.

 And there's more to say about them but I'll let you know that even with just an album, they recieved 25 awards, their fans were called names but also awarded as one of the best of Kpop because of their actions, they helped people and never forgot about their roots, they smiled when they met their families after a long time and gaves us gifts every once in a while. They made covers and honored older idols, they supported the ones of their company and even let us know that they were fans of them as much of us about EXO.

I can say I'll never leave this family, because all the smiles that the people I met since then were the ones sometimes I couldn't find in any other place. They gave my life another meaning, they may be the most crazy fandom on Kpop or even in the music family but I'm not ashamed to say that I love it that way. I made jokes about them and have a dirty but funny way sometimes, but that's how I am because of them, I'm the person that suffered but after sometime smiled and cried because of happiness, I'm the one that didn't believe I could be this way, and I'm happy I can be like this.

I love them not because of their looks but for the true persons that as us, live in this world. They would make more in the future, and I'll wait for them even if they take years, because they have a piece of my heart and if I leave them, I'm sure I'll break, because they made me realize, they're the ones that saved my life.

It's just what I have to say, at least for now, I'll just hope someday I make my dream come true, and as them shine on stage, and be my true self off stage, surviving as when I met them.

This is for us, the angels that made their days by living on this world that sometimes isn't the best that we see.

 

My love for you will never fade away, with you my OT12 until the end.