I'm scared of being attached too close to people, cause when I am, I will stick to a person and then that person will start hating me. 

This may sound weird but when someone talks to me, I can tell their emotions based on their tone, words, how they portray themselves to me, hand jestures and when I look into their eye. If someone seems annoyed, irritated or excited, for some reason I can tell it in a glance even though that person may be trying to her their emotions.

recently, I constantly feel that a lot of my friends in the group that I go for break have been annoyed at me. When I put away my plate, as I walk to them, I can see the irritated/annoyed looks in their eye. When they talk to me, I constantly feel very insecure like something is going to hurt me.

it all happened after my doctor recently told me my horrid back pains were due to my spine being slanted, something that I had when I was younger. It wouldn't affect me much, just that simple activities like bending down or climbing stairs has become such a pain.

it may sound ridiculous but I've started to notice my friends emotions more after the news. When I told my friends, they seemed genuinely worried but I noticed some where "acting".

one may think I'm being paranoid but I really cant ignore this feeling. This back problem happened to me in the past, when I was younger. My friends suddenly distanced from me cause simple activities where almost impossible to me. Yes, It may sound like rubbish, but that feeling of  being "abandoned" is something I don't want ever again...

So I'll just join the group of friends I have now with the "genuine" friends I trust and I'll slowly distance myself from all of them so I won't get in their way and annoy them.

The most ironic thing about this situation is that every single "friend" that I get the vibe from are the same "friends" that I had helped them, invited them to join my group, do things for them. When these "friends" were alone in our new class this year, I invited them, opened up to all of them and did everything for them. I wonder at times if I was being used for the past 4 months...

Goodnight, to whomever reads this... I hope you don't have such problems like me. Ignorance is bliss... And for once I feel that such is true.