Well, this is going to be my depressing thoughts post...

High school is suppose to be fun. It is suppose to be where you start experiencing crushes and romance and, well, at least I thought it was. Starting fresh out in high school, I was looking forward to a fun life in high school.

Being an asian in a 90% white school has been very hard. I managed to find lots of friends but, now one of my three best friends found her first boyfriend. We still talk a lot but I started doubting myself. I originally thought I was pretty. Not beautiful, but pretty. But when all the people around me are getting boyfriends and asked out, I started feeling really insecure. I'm really fit, talented, and pretty, well so my best friends have told me. Some people even call me perfect. I used to believe them, but now, I feel really unwanted. It's not that I want a boyfriend; it's that I suddenly feel so insecure about myself. My mind keeps racing on and on about, is my skin too dark? Am I looking fat? Is my hair a bees' nest? Why don't guy like me?

Anyway, thanks for reading my depressing thoughts. Now that I've vented it off, I will go and enjoy my awesomely warm cookie.