For the past year I’ve been living alone in the city I was born, away from my nuclear family (though, I do have some family here) and away from whom I thought were my friends.

I always end up having this kind of thoughts when Valentine’s Day is coming, no kidding.

I met Super Junior a year ago, approximately, when I came to this city. When I was having a hard time being alone without my sisters and my parents, their music, their songs and their stories made me company like a friend. They were like a light in a dark night. They songs were really meaningful to me, they allowed me to laugh and cry every time I watched them on the stage. Their stories about their difficulties and many obstacles made me redefine me.

They are really strong in every aspect.

Then, I met Shinhwa. The long-run idol group. The Legend. Eric, Minwoo, Dongwan, Hyesung, Junjin, Andy. Mun Jonghyuk, Lee Minwoo, Kim Dongwan, Jung Pilkyo, Park Choongjae, Lee Sunho.

Six names, six men, six different personalities. Six friends. Not six members, six brothers.

For the past couple of months, since I learned about them and their friendship it made me think about my own friends.

Do I have something like that? I thought I did, but then realized that I was lying to myself. So I buried myself in their music, their songs and their stories. They stole my heart and my soul almost instantly; although I have a soft spot for Super Junior since they are my first kpop group, Shinhwa means FRIENDSHIP to me.

It means everything. Because, I won’t find it something like that again. Even if I go back to the place I used to live, the people around me keep leaving me behind. They don’t look back like the guys did when Minwoo had financial problems; they don’t lend a hand like the guys did when Junjin or Andy went through their problems; they don’t have the time to spend with me, like they did when Hyesung had his gambling issue.

And I’m here, writing nonsense over something I miss the most. Friendship. A sincere and honest friendship. The kind of friendship where each one of us can hug each other without reason.

Everybody grows… Everybody forgets… Everybody move on.