Do you know that feeling when you love someone completely and insanely much? 

Do you know the feeling of wanting to cry everytime you see him/them even when it's only on the screen and that every drop of sweat or tear is just so terribly much for you to hanlde?

Have you ever experienced the feeling of loving someone who is incredibly far away from you?

And the feeling that no matter how much you love that person, you just can't be there. Not even in your dreams.

I don't know why I am being like this. Despite my efforts to dettach from him/them, it's seems impossible. He has something. They have something that just drawn me to them each time I watch the screen. 

The worst part of this feeling is the yearning to be over there, just to look at them from afar. Are they eating well? Are they taking care of themselves like they have to? Are they resting well? Are they happy? Are they sick? Does ever someone ask how are they FOR REAL? Not the common question we throw when we greet each other but the kind of question that demands for the truth.

And then, there is this feeling that I hate the most... When someone else loves them the same way you do but she is incredibly annoying if you ever says something about his bias. Like, seriously?! Why the hell I can't say anything about her bias? What if he's my bias too but because she had "owned" him then I can't say a damn thing!!! 

*Sigh* I'm depressed... blue, blue, blue... like something is wrong with me.

~Pateukie.