Weeeellll

I don't think I want to write anymore guise

Whats the point?

Hardly anyone seems to care. My audience has dwindled. 

But most importantly, I don't even want to write for myself anymore. Which was my main purpose for writing. The quality of my work has been shot....with a sawed off, double barrell shot gun. At least, to me. Seems these days that I can barely form a coherent sentence, let alone an entire fic...

And its not like writing has become a chore.

Its just that I really don't care. Along with countless other people. 

I havent updated my LJ in a while, aside from The Black Lie. And speaking of that fic, I don't even know why I was so compelled to finish it when it wasn't like I'd be all, "OOOHHH YISS I LOVE THIS FIC IM SO HAPPY WITH THE OUTCOME YAAYYY I AM TOTS SATISFIED." 

Nope. When I finished it, I was like, "Ugh, finally, now I can move on."

.....isn't supposed to be like that guise.

My head and my harddrive are just full of story ideas. Ideas I wish I had the patience and skills to write. Because I don't care what anyone says-I know at least a handful of authors who could write what I have written (or write the ideas I have) and make it 100x better than what it is. I know that. Which depresses me even more. Mainly because I would LOVE to read their versions.

Now and then I will get these spurts of inspiration and I'll write something really short and (un)sweet. But even those I look back on and go, "Ew" or feel like they aren't anything special. Like they were all farts or something, something unpleasant I had to let out.

I still love writing, I really do. 

Just...not as much as I used to. 

So I'm contemplating whether I should just take a...like a year hiatus from writing. Or continue with the drabble bursts. Or finish all that is unfinished and then stop. 

Idk

I feel like I am really disappointing you guise. And its sad that I am not really disappointing the writer in me. In fact, she is in a corner right now, her thumb and playing on her phone. 

Errrrrrrr.

On that note, nighty night <3

 

 

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micah95 #1
Well, I am no writer, so I can't say I know what you are going through...
But as much as I LOVE your stories, if you feel like you need a break, girl you go and chill!
I will still be here reading your fics, whether it's something brand new, or something I have read 50 times before~ ^_^
jjm216 #2
WE ARE THE SAME PERSON I SWEAR. I've lost a couple subscribers since I haven't been updating as often because of school and I also get writer's block so I'm like ughhhh but feel bad because I feel like people are waiting and judging me for not writing. I'm not into writing as often as I used to which is why I started taking oneshot requests to hopefully get my creativity flowing again but I JUST DON'T KNOW EITHER.
southpaw #3
Hardly anyone seems to care. My audience has dwindled.

^-- same problem. 'If no one cares then why should I' has been my problem lately. I've been very unmotivated. I'd tell you how to fix it if I knew how. /sigh
orenjijunsu #4
maybe you should just take a break for a while. That's what I'm doing ^^ writing can sometimes become too much. Take a break, remember why you loved writing, and THEN go back. Nothing's wrong with taking a break, whether it be for a week, a month, or a year.
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