I started writing fanfictions in middle school because of a close friend.

He was probably the only one who knew about my passion for literature. I wrote stories on my own but I kept them private, knowing that the world didn't give a damn about my hobby. Especially when I was so young, there was little hope of me going far with writing. And my parents were the typical Asians who pushed me into the field of Science and Math rather than English. Facing reality, I knew there was no point to keep on writing.

That was when he introduced me to fanfictions.

Truth is, I wasn't much of a reader. I'm not much of a reader now either. Maybe that's why I don't have the broadest vocabulary. But still I loved to read fiction, whether it was limited to those belonging to a famous series. My first fanfiction was on the popular Twilight quadrilogy where I ended the life of my favorite character, Jacob Black with a tragic suicide (Bella was assumed to have died and Edward was going to kill himself through the Volturi). I must say I have a strange love for tragedies. It's funny how my first fanfiction was for an English assignment where we had to use a couple vocab words to create a story. My teacher really enjoyed my story and praised me for it. That was when my friend read it and told me to try posting it on a fanfiction website.

At first, I didn't get many views. My English assignment was an obvious oneshot and all I got was three reviews. When I think about it, I was lucky to even get three comments since the website I used had a couple million (or more?) fanfictions on it and it was extremely hard for your story to be recognized. Then I started another Twilight fanfiction and it received much more attention. But it was my Percy Jackson fanfiction, titled A Tangled Love Story that really encouraged me to keep writing.

I was surprised at all the positive criticism I got. Everyone seemed very pleased by my interesting plot and some even called me a child author. Maybe my head got a little too big... because I would have to start all over again. I didn't even finish my Twilight or Percy Jackson fanficitons. I just stopped. I received e-mails from my readers asking me where I went, desperately pleading me to continue the stories, but I cruelly ignored them all.

All because my friendship with my close friend ended.

We really ended on a bad note. It would be an understatement if I said that I hated him at the time. He hurt me and my parents and almost tore my family apart. I knew he was subscribed to my account on the website and I wanted nothing to do with him anymore. Maybe it was petty, maybe it was immature but I stopped writing because it reminded me of him.

It was years later when I started to write again.

I actually began writing again last year. I had just entered college and I suddenly found myself with a lot of free time that I didn't know how to spend. Four years in high school had healed my trauma to some extent and I was ready to weave stories again. But at first, it was hard. I tried to continue my fanfictions on my previous account but it was obvious that my readers had all left after waiting for so long. I thought I was never going to write again until I found asianfanfics.com.

It was by chance that I found this site. I was searching for some Shinhwa fanfictions since I was falling in love with them all over again. At first, I thought there were only Korean ones and I had no courage to write in Korean although I'm a native speaker. Then I found English ones and I was like this is it! It was my big shot to start all over again as a fanfiction writer.

I honestly know that I'm not the best writer out there and that I have a loooong way to go. But this is what I love doing. Writing, creating stories. I still have some time to go until I stop feeling awkward writing about real characters (especially my beloved Hyesung oppa :) but I'm glad to be back to doing what I love again. The whole point of writing this blog (if there was ever a point to begin with lol) is to show my readers how much you guys all mean to me. Without you guys, I would've never continued writing. So please don't stop supporting me. I promise to gradually improve and become a better writer and I want you guys to see that for yourselves. And please don't stop supporting other writers out there as well because they need all the support they can get, too ;)

Anyhow, I really hope I won't stop writing again. Whatever happens, I don't want to lose this passion.