And my family wonders why I want to move out of the country.

So I've brought up the "moving to Korea" thing to my grandmother times before, and for some reason, she always frowns up or gets this look like, "Yeah right" Like, why would I want to move over there. You can do missionary work here in Florida, blah blah blah ( whoever said I wanted to go there to do missionary work anyway? smh)

Anyway, so she gets this funky attitude whenever I mention it, and I found out today that when my mom mentioned it to her, she's like, "I don't think Alexandria is ready. She's going to see that its not like over here." Basically saying I'm some sheltered little spoiled brat who would go over there and act like a lost puppy.

WTF? Do you know how ing insulting that sounds? So just because I don't go everywhere around Tampa and prefer to go out when I feel its necessary, I won't be able to fend for myself? Do I look/act THAT ing helpless to you?

News flash: I HATE ing Florida, first of all. I hate living here, I hate being in Tampa. Hate everything about it. Not my scene. The only fun around here that I can have involves partying, drinking, drugs, illegal and promiscuity. If its not that, its the movies. Because I can't drive out to the beaches all the ing time (which gets boring anyway) and I dont have enough money to go other places that are less lame. I'm tired of the lack of cultural arts around here. When I went to NY, I felt like I was right at home. There was so much to do, and such a variety. 

And finding about Korea and all its wonders...well, it was inevitable that I would want to go. It would be a brand new environment, a new experience. I'm EXPECTING it to be different from Florida-in fact, I ING COUNT ON IT BECAUSE, AS I CANNOT STRESS ENOUGH, I WANT TO GTFO OF THIS DUMP. THATS THE WHOLE PURPOSE OF ME LEAVING. ING DUH. 

And helpless? I ing adapt like a pro when I fly to different states. I have an excellent sense of direction. I know a bit of Korean that will get me by. I am familiar with honorifics and etiquette and currency. I am wrapped in their ing culture like a ing burrito.  And most of all, as well as being academically intelligent, I have street smarts. Why the would I not be ready?

My mom brought up a good point that I was thinking just as she said it-thats the whole point of me leaving. So I CAN experience a different lifestyle, so I CAN immerse myself in the other side of train tracks. And decide from there if I like it or not. What, you want me to wait until I'm ing 35 to leave and experience other things? Get real. 

Just because I can't and am NOT interested in living like you (which means being super uptight about religion and conservation and diet-vegan ketchup and peanut butter and other ) that means I'm not ready?So getting out into the world to you means riding around the same ing city you've lived in your entire life running errands, but not moving all the way across the world to another country for a breath of fresh air? 

I'm a big girl. I'll be fine. I'm doing on my own now. Just...

Like, this is the type of ignorant that compels me to move even more.