I can't explain what I feel...

Sorry for the lame reference in the title...

 

Well... I'm frustrated.

I've been frustrated for a few weeks now.

You see, I'm not a native English speaker. Yet, I like to write. And I like it that people are happy when they read what I write. But lately, I've been growing insecure about my writing skills...

If only English was my mother tongue, I would be able to convey what I want... My writing skills in French are way superior, I've basically been writing since I can hold a pen... Switching to English made me start again from scratch, and it's a bit confusing...

So that's why my updates have been slowing down. I'm so sorry. I have inspiration, it's just confidence that I lack of. I really would like to be able to offer my readers decent updates, with decent language, images and stylistic devices (see, I had to look that up...).

 

Well, my ranting's over.

I just wanted to let my readers know the reason I'm not updating as frequently as I used to be (okay, I have a job now, that might count as well...)

 

See you people!

 

Love~♥

 

P_N

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_Baekkie
#1
I like your English better than other writers. It's easy to read, not too flamboyant. ^^ . HWAITING~!!! (I am not a native English speaker too)
minhosnoona #2
your english skills are great! I'm a teacher and your stories are easy for me to read because I'm not mentally correcting your grammar! Don't get discouraged!
iGotThatSHINeeLuv #3
Your english/writing is great! I really enjoy reading your stories. And don't worry, I'm a native speaker and your writing is much better than mine! Don't be self-conscious. Your updates are great and I look forward to more :)
chokapi
#4
Tu es française ? 'o'
J'ai exactement le même problème que toi, je n'ose même plus continuer ma fanfic, parce que je n'arrive jamais a exprimer ce que je veux exprimer ;___; Bref tu dois surement t'en moquer.
Bonne continuation, j'adore ta fanfic c:
kate64100 #5
but one develops one's abilities by using the language~ especially in every possible way, like talking with people, writing stuff, reading stuff, watching stuff and just using the language~ it helps a lot~ and, you know, I believe that the more you use the language, in a way that you talk with people and write stuff, the more confident you become. Like, I remember being in France and not knowing French, but since I knew English and I had no choice, so I must've kept on using it, when I'm sure I fail harder than you might. And it was fun and it's easier to get over the "what if I say something wrong~" thingy. So, yay, just go for things without so many worries~ Your lever of writing is really, really nice and high and so many people (me included) like it a lot~ And since you seem to be still learning all the time, developing your abilities, it makes things even great~ <3 You do offer very lovely fics of really nice quality, be sure of this~ <3
so, yay, less worrying~ more happy thoughts~ more smiles~ <3
and I probably should say much less, but since I'm supposed to wake up in 5 hours, my mind is like "why not to talk a lot~", so here I am~ <3
and, still, more positivity~ <3
chocobada
#6
omg, i have the same problems as you, english isn't my mother language but i like to write in english (or engrish) ;;.

its okay, more you into this place, you will learn how to write propeerly in english :) (me also lack in eng)

your stories are great ^^ keep writing okay? fighting!!
eusiah
#7
(I'm just lurking at the writing tag :) )

Omg I understand your feels. It's realy frustrating especially when there is a lot of prompts and scenes in your head yet when you're ready to type or write, words suddenly flew away.

My advice is always think in the positive way. No writer is confident with their first try. There's still time to improve and gain confidence. Don't always compare your work with others' stories. :)
aiskuriimu
#8
....i'm exactly the same as you. it relly is very difficult to write in english in a way that it is good etc. it just doesn't flow as well when you're not a native :/ but i'm really surprised to hear this from you!! i though for a very long time that english is your mother tongue and not once have i been disappointed with the way you write not have i found mistakes in your grammar! so please, try to stay confident! you're an awesome author! i do undertand how annoying it is when your mind is like ________ when trying to come up with a good way of expressing what you want but we need to keep writing nevertheless!! after all, that's the only way we can come better, right? <3