Being a teenager is hard. Well that's what i think. Even if i'm just 13, pre-teen and i guess so is being a teenager.

It's like you get so emotional over little things and the next thing you know, you're laughing..like seriously. my mood changes like every 10 minutes. It's tiring and difficult. I feel the need to study and learn and go to school and become a better person but i'm just so ing lazy.

So here are my few rants if you even bother to read it. Don't worry i won't get mad if you don't read this.

It's holiday, and i've tons of notes to do for next year and yet i'm writing some one-shots for my kpop pals.

And the kpop thing, i keep thinking one day i was bound to stop all these spazzing over some koreans when in real life it's completely impossible to meet your idols. And even if i do meet some idols, it's not like we would fell in love and get married and all. Honestly, i think kpop is just a waste of time, i'm sorry if you don't agree but it's what i think. Fanfics, fanfics, fanfics, why read about all the dramas, romance and comedies when you can create your own life filled with them? But look at me, here i am still loving kpop as hell and still writing and reading strangely amazing and unique fanfics. Aish so messed up.

Another feeling when you're a teen, DATING. yes dating, i've always wanted to try dating but i know in my religion it's not allowed, plus i'm too pretty for dating (i'm just being sarcastic i'm not pretty) . My teachers, parents and my over protective brotherskept telling how dating is also a waste of time just like kpop and i agreed apparently. Why bother dating? You don't even know if the relationship will last forever and ever. I've seen my friends. They confessed, date, break up, confessed, date, break up.

Trying to find the real me. Sometimes i wonder what i am really like. Am i funny? Hot-tempered? Nice? Friendly? Cool? Awesome? Do i belong to the nerds, cool ones, or the isolated ones?

School is a pain in the . Unfortunately, i think school is very very VERY important. The funny thing is, i don't give a . Well, i give a sometimes i mean come on, who wouldn't like to be complimented 'I wish i had a brain like you' (Ahuh no. just no. You wouldn't want to have a dirty mind like i do) 'You're so smart! 'Good job on the test' and the most appreciated compliment. 'I'm proud of you' . Sadly, my parents rarely said that when i passed with high scores on exam. They often be like 'Are you in the top?' 'Are you the highest? 'Who has the highest?' 'How many she got?'  'Study harder and make me proud'

in my mind: WELL I WISH I COULD HAVE BRAINS LIKE YOU BOTH HAVE, WILL YOU BE PROUD THEN?

I hate being a teenager. WTH  i'm only 13. *awkward laugh* f*** this life. *buries my head in keyboard*

P/S: i know i'm not the only one. no i'm not having my time of the month ;~~~~;