My Psychological Testing Result...It was depressing...

I don't know what made me depressed...I feel happy...Is it hollow?

Today, I've received the result of the Emotional Quotient and Intelligence Quotient exams I got just about a month ago through e-mail. While it is true that I have been suffering from sadness these past weeks, I couldn't believe the outcome. Prior to this, I had been losing sleep. I can't easily get myself to drift off like I did before. I usually get home from work just before midnight as it finishes at 11:00, but I thought it was just natural for me to be having odd sleeping patterns, but it made a turn for the worse when this person who was very dear to me died.

When he did, of couse, at first, it was hard for me to accpet but I knew to myself that I have been feeling better. Apparently, it was just consciously. Unconsciously, I feel a lot worse and I've discovered two conditions I'm in at the moment.

The exam I took for IQ test was good. I had a great result and I was more than satisfied with the result that I got, covering most except for quantitative reasoning. I at Math...I wasn't expecting it, but I was happy about it. One the other hand, my EQ was so bad. Along with the EQ, I had this interview with a psycholigist who would analyze the answers on the paper, mostly essays I had to write.

Apparently, I am suffering from mild insomnia. I can't sleep immediately. It was interpreted that I was having sleeping disorders because I was afraid to see what's in my head the moment I start seeing the primary images of my subconscious mind. I don't know if this is true, but I don't feel any kind of fear about my subconscious thoughts. I don't even dream most of the time.

Secondly, I have a bigger problem. Though it is considered mild, I still have clinical depression. The interpretation as to why I'm having it was sue to my tendency to lose interest in most things at a certain point in time without regard as to how important it may seem to others.

I felt so bad about that...

I don't know what's wrong with me, but according to some close people, I've been changing. They said that if I choose not to talk, I just wouldn't. I didn't know I was actually doing that.

What's wrong with me?

Have I gone crazy?

No...I've always been crazy, but... *sigh*

My gosh...I can't believe that underneath it all, I have these...It's depressing...

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stick_oLoveEXO #1 Sep 26, 2012 02:49:00

Though, I don't really know you. I think, you will be fine soon :) You'll get over with that matter. Think that tomorrow's is another day. Another day to move on. Always smile and laugh. Laughter is the best medicine. I do hope you know that. Take things lightly and positively :)

seoulchae #2 Sep 25, 2012 13:48:15

i don't think you're crazy . i know how it feels cause i'm currently having depression as well. Mine is chronic depression/dysthymia
If you think this depression will be a hassle to your life, i suggest you to go to a therapist to talk it out. i mean it could help to seek for professional help while you can get out of it before it's too late, like me. I tried to go to psychiatrist but my mom won't let me so the depression worsened. I think it'll be better if you treat it early :)

good luck :)

MiMiSHINee #3 Sep 25, 2012 12:17:44

Aww, it'll get better eventually! I had depression and suffer from insomnia as well :( it gets better as time goes by! Hwaiting!!

hvnyc- #4 Sep 25, 2012 08:36:03

Please take better care of yourself and remember to be happy. ^__^

dyonamite #5 Sep 25, 2012 08:33:30

Don't take it too much to heart.
Things do change anyway, but let's just make sure it's not going to the negative way.
Anyways, just try to fix those negative things but other than that just relax and enjoy life as it is, and try to appreciate the beauty of life just the way it is.
Things come and go, even people, but that doesn't mean it's necessarily a bad thing. That's just how life is but that's also what makes it precious. We learn to see the value of the people that are close to us through our mortality.
Lastly, don't feel down. Fighting! :)

heyitsbabyjoojoo #6 Sep 25, 2012 08:31:38

unnie please be all right and take better care for yourself!!! Please be happy~!