There was this guy I really liked before, but things didn't work between the two of us and I was the one who broke it off. Will you believe me if I tell you we decided to end whatever we have because I felt my love for Onew is deeper than him? But Damn he WAS my bestfriend, and on some point I felt like I really love him... to bits. I didn't know why I suddenly woke up not caring about him at all.

But there, almost a year later, so that was just 2 months ago, I started thinking about him again. Occassionally. Probably because I wrote sweet fics so I somehow remembered the memories I shared with him. That led to a point where I regretted telling him we should stop. I kept thinking about how would it be if we stayed together longer. 

So then... we just had a conversation hours ago. I gathered all the courage to ask "Do you still love me?" and he replied, "I still want to be with you." You know what... I was just waiting for him to say "Can we try again?" "Should we give this relationship a 2nd chance?" but instead of telling those, he just told me "If we're meant to be, then we will be together in the end." Like duh?! Destiny is a matter of choice, and the fact that I feel I kind of love you again now doesn't mean I will love you forever. I don't think we can realize our love for each other if we don't try again. 

But at least I'm relieved. He kept on bugging on my mind and I can't freakin' stay still. Now I can breathe. He WAS my bestfriend after all, so I'm trying to save everything. and besides... we never really ended it in personal. I mean, we never got to see each other again after a year so I can't freakin' identify my real feelings.

And the funny thing was... Onew's face kept on flushing in my mind while I was giving him my reply. Onew kept appearing that I ended up not replying to him at all. So yeah, I'm on line right now, browsing for Onew photos. DAMN FUNNY.

Please talk to me if you ever read this. I would love to hear your comment about me and my stupidity