My emotions are a little screwy
I HATE PEOPLE.
I really do. Because they make stupid decisions or say stupid things or they die.
This weekend fans were in uproar about BlockB.
All I can say is: shut the up. If you're really not going to support them right now and cause more problems by continuously bringing it up, you were never even a true fan. So GTFO.
Now, onto the more recent topic that is the center of my depression. Two of my friends both lost their fathers' this weekend. My one friend lost her father due to a heart attack he had in his sleep. Though I never met him, I know he was a nice man and he was funny.
My other friend has a more depressing situation. Both are depressing, but this friends father didn't die of natural causes. Nor was he murdered. He committed suicide. I'd never met him either, and my friend didn't talk about her father much, though I know he had medical problems. But I think his death will affect her because she was a Daddy's girl.
When my poppop died in an accident, my sister had been driving. My sister blamed herself and went to therapy for a while. I can only imagine how their fathers' deaths will affect them.
And it makes me sad.
Bringing me to the point of: I HATE PEOPLE.
We fall in love or we love a family member dearly, and then they die. Why does that have to happen? Why do we always blame ourselves?
I don't want anyone to feel that pain and I really don't want to feel it myself.
I didn't know either of their dads' but I know when I get to the viewing tomorrow for one of them, I'm going to cry. I'm just that much of an emotional wreak when it comes to this stuff.
And how easily people die makes me question love. Do I actually want a little happiness just so it can be ripped away and replaced with sadness?
On a MUCH brighter note, My brother called today to inform us that his baby is going to be a boy. I'm going to have a nephew~
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