Hey you guys! It's been a while once again! 

I'm stopping by to say hello, and just to let things out of my chest. It used to matter to me if anybody would read these things but now, I'm kind of just using this as a journal. I tried doing the handwritten ones and that didn't really work out well. It's just hiding in my drawer untouched after a few weeks of obsessing over it. Typicl me. HAHA Surprisingly, for the past three months since I had last made a 'blog' I am still doing okay. In fact, I think I'm doing amazing? That's so unlikely for me to ever say, but I guess I am really healing this time? 

I don't know how many times of 'healing' I've gone through in the past but one thing I'm sure of right now, I think I'm healing the right way this time. I'm still in the process of making small but important changes in my life and I don't think I'll be done with that anytime soon. It's still a scary world, it hasn't changed ... but maybe I did, even just a little. I'm okay with embracing the fear and then moving on and forward again. That's just life I guess. 

How are you guys? Anything new? Anything exciting happening in your life? I'm still following KPOP music everyday but somehow I feel like I've been left out a lot more things since I stopped using social media. I have no Instagram, Twitter, Facebook and anything you could think that speaks social media, except youtube but I don't really know if that even counts? I do tend to do the occasional 'youtube shorts' browsing but I don't think that counts too much of social media. It's been seven months, going to eight months since I stopped and I'm surprised at how much my mental health has improved???? I know it's a really controversial topic to discuss and not a lot of people will agree with it, I think ... but damn, social media does us up in a lot of ways. HAHAHA But so far, I haven't felt the need to go back to it, and until then, I will continue to enjoy life the way I have been lately!

I know I may not feel like the same Otornim you once liked (I hope?), at least not right now, since I haven't really served you anything in this platform. But whether I eventually do so, or not ... I hope I'm still welcome to come here just to catch up once in a while? Like old friends?

Who knows, maybe once I'm a registered therapist or social worker or behaviour technician or whatever I end up becoming with this path I will be taking this time, I can continue talking to you guys and helping you heal, in a better and a more professional (lol) way this time? Or maybe who knows, you never know, maybe when I'm ready to come back to writing as a hobby ... my stories would have a deeper and more meaningful plot because I have grown. Or maybe it's still going to be the same old crackhead-energy rollercoaster plot that I've always done. 

But until then, let me just say hi and tell you I miss you!