So... after eight and a half years, I finally finished college. Everyone around me knows how challenging it was, how messy, and how much I have wanted to give up throughout those years. But, last weekend, I finally took my board examination. It won't be until 10 working days before the results will be released, but I am hoping, praying, that this will finally be it. It's been 3 days and I can't sit still, I can't sleep, I can't focus on anything at all. I wanted to catch up on my TBR list, but I cannot sit to read a whole paragraph. I tried catching up on some KDramas I have missed out on for the past year, I cannot sit through a whole episode. I tried writing but here I am, writing this blog post for the past hour with 500 words. I tried to play games, I cannot sit on a game for an hour without feeling dizzy or nauseous. I am so out of myself, so anxious about the results, it's almost driving me crazy. 

Anyway, I have a good feeling about the boards. But the longer I wait, the more anxious I get. I will have to wait for a lot more days and I honestly am not sure how I'll distract myself from the anxiety until the results are released. I thought the exams would be the height of the anxiety, but apparently, the wait is worse.

But I do pray that I will be able to get to at least one hobby before the wait drives me crazy.