...and it's not because of COVID. I have been in this college since 2012 and I should've graduated in 2016. But then I had so many ups and downs (PTSD, Depression, you know the stuff). I have been on and off college since then. And in 2017, when I finally decided to do college properly, everything I have done in my past bit me in the . The minor subjects that I have dropped came at me all at once. I had to take them all but there were days where I got too busy with my majors I wasn't able to go to the minor subjects anymore. So, long story short, I dropped a LOT of minor subjects. It wasn't because I was dumb or anything. I was even an achiever (best thesis, top of my class), but minor subjects just bore the hell out of me because they do not have any connection to my course at all (Nursing). So until last semester, I thought I was only left with two subjects to take. Then, when I was talking to our school today, apparently, professors from last term dropped me even if I explained to them that I had a 7-day school week (all majors and hospital rotations) and I offered to do paperwork instead. The professors agreed but it wasn't until today when I found out they screwed me over. I was supposed to graduate this term but it doesn't seem feasible anymore because of their "restrictions" in taking subjects. So now... instead of graduating in December, I am, once again, delayed. And it hit me so bad. I already started planning the next chapter of my life. I had everything fixed in my head but then I was told that I won't graduate. And I am entering another downward spiral because of it. I know it's my fault for not going to those classes when I had to and I don't have an actual excuse that professors would take (like my grandmother's 80th birthday, my grandfather's funeral that lasted 10 days, then COVID lockdown). But this ing world is cruel and I feel like I want to give up and just drop out of college and idk, maybe kill myself.